The Nest

New Car

Posted Friday, July 18, 2008 12:09 AM

Today was a good day. I got a new car!!!

I got an '08 Ford Focus. I had an '07 but when I saw all the new stuff the '08 has, I had to have it. So I traded my car in and got the new one.

Here is the link for it 

Ford

The technology is amazing in this car. I would list it but its a lot, and you can see it for yourself 

I will list a couple of things though. It is Bluetooth compatible. Since I hate holding the phone and driving, plus we cant do it anymore against the law. This is perfect. Also I can upload music from my computer to a usb drive and put it in my car. I was sold on just these 2 features.

The best part of it all? 35mpg hwy. As high as gas is, I will appreciate this. Here's a picture of it

 

 

Vacation from hell

Posted Thursday, July 17, 2008 3:02 AM

I am never going on vacation again.

I had the worst time ever, ugh!

First - We left 2 hours late. This is all my husband, we always wait on him

Second - The AC decided to just not work in the middle of july. So we drove 2 hours with no AC.

Third - We left the keys to the cabin on the coffee table! great huh? So Aaron had to find the hiding spot and get the keys. Some neighbors thought we were breaking in, it was fun convincing them we werent robbing the damn place

Fourth - Alyssa does not like unfamiliar places. She was miserable the entire time. Poor baby. The climate change is what did it, her body couldnt adjust

Fifth - I forgot my breastpump. I dont know how I did. Oh I remember, I asked my husband to grab the big red bag, but he forgot. Ugh. So I got really engorged both mornings, and was in pain. I nursed Alyssa but she didnt eat enough, to make the pain go away.

Sixth - No cable in our cabin. OH MY GOD! I was ready to scream at this point. I dont think I smiled once. Oh yeah I did at Alyssa to try and calm her down.

The only thing great about this trip was the weather. Only 67 degrees, when its 110 here. I really think I expected too much. Im thinking maybe if Alyssa was calm I would have had a better time. It was too soon for her to be away from home. This is an experience I dont want to go through again lol. Now back to work on monday!

Adios

Posted Monday, July 14, 2008 3:30 AM

All packed to go to Avila for 4 days 3 nights. Last vacation before going back to work :( I'll make sure to enjoy it :)

1 Month

Posted Thursday, July 10, 2008 4:47 AM

Alyssa is 1 month old today! Where has the time gone?

In the past month I have learned more about Alyssa, than any other person I have known for years. She changes everyday, and makes me smile just from the way she looks at me :) Here are some pics that were taken yesterday

This is the "'m wide awake I dont care if you want to sleep" look

 

 

 

 

This is the "get that camera out of my face!" look

 

Post Partum Stuff

Posted Monday, July 07, 2008 5:29 PM

Ive blogged my entire pregnancy on here but never blogged about the "4th trimester"

If you think pregnancy is hard just wait until after you have the baby. 

Hospital Stay

After you have your baby, you will get 0% rest. Im not joking either. Every few hours, when you're trying to get some rest, a nurse will come in. He/she will press on your stomach. Yes this is fun after having a baby. They will do this to see if there are any blood clots. They will also take your blood pressure and ask you how you are feeling, if you need any pain meds. You might after the stomach pushing.

The hospital staff takes their time releasing you. I was released after 12 hours. I wanted to be out of there. I could have stayed 48 hours but seeing as I have been through this before I didnt need 2 days of being confined to a bed. I waited 2 hours to be released, after the dr said I could be released.

The staff will tell you to get your bags ready, and you will wait and wait on them. You know why they do this? I-N-S-U-R-A-N-C-E! the longer you stay, the more they get paid.

There is a LOT of paperwork, you have all the aftercare papers, birth certificate, social security, pictures, hospital policy, ect. Its just a lot and stuff you dont want to read at the moment, but you have to because all this stuff has to be signed.

At Home

Once you get home, you want to rest. Because you didnt get any in the hospital. I had no visitors in the hospital so guess what I had all day when I got home? I was exhasuted my back was hurting from the epidural and all I wanted to do was sleep. Luckily the visitors only stayed about 30 minutes to an hour because they could look at me and tell I was tired.

Don't be afraid to tell people you're tired. In my case I didnt have to, but some people just dont have common sense to know you just had a baby and the thing you want to do most, they are keeping you from.

I did not care if my house was clean. All the pre pregnancy cleaning I did, went out the window. I didnt care how it looked with everyone visiting. I also didnt care a week after. Its amazing the things you wont care about when you have a baby. I didn't care how my hair looked, what clothes I wore, as long as I was comfortable I didnt care. I went 3 days w/o a shower (I washed up) and didnt care. I just rested and took care of my baby.

I just advise you to rest rest rest. Your body will pay for it trust me. Mines did. from going back and forth to the dr, then a hospital stay, I had no rest when I finally got home my body was sore from head to toe.

Post Partum Bleeding

This may be a little TMI but if you are pregnant or plan on having a baby this is something you will need to know. The bleeding afterwards aka Lochia is not a joke. I am still bleeding, almost a month out.

The first week is very heavy. Imagine the whole 4/5 days you are on your period all cramed into one hour. Thats how heavy it is the first week. The hospital will give you these HUGE pads to wear that go from your belly button to the top of your butt crack. I gasped when I saw these with Haley but they keep your clothes and sheets from getting ruined.

After the first week its get lighter and lighter. Right now its so light, it feels like a waste of a pad. You usually bleed anywhere from 4-6 weeks after sometimes more, it just depends. Im just ready to stop bleeding.

Your Body

Luckily im already below my pre pregnancy weight. But emotionally I am not normal. I have 2 kids to take care of, and im still only 3 weeks 6 days out from having a baby. I can't move as fast as I use to. I think my body is still recovering from all the running around I did in the first week. So I will stress to everyone REST REST REST. No so much sleep. Because I didnt, I cant live like that. But just rest.

Also your body will never be how it was before you got pregnant. Your uterus will always be bigger than it was. But if you eat healthy and exercise then no one will be able to tell :)

Appetite

I dont know about anyone else but my appetite is gone. I went through this with Haley so I expected it this time. I have to make myself eat. I eat about twice a day even though it should be 4 because I am breastfeeding, but Im just not hungry. I will eat more once I go back to work though to keep my supply up.

Breastfeeding

I am breastfeeding, and I encourage everyone to. Unless there is a medical reason you can't. its the best for your baby, and no formula, I dont care what the can or commerical or dr says, can not replace breastmilk.

I breastfeed every 2 hours and about 20 minutes on each side. I love breastfeeding because I can just lift up my shirt and feed her. I dont have to warm bottles, mix formula, measure ect.

Lately she has been going a little longer between feedings because she eats more, which gives me more time to do what I need to do.

If you decide to breastfeed. I highly recommend getting a really good pump. I have the Lansinoh Double Electric Pump. Its $150.00 at at Babies R Us, and worth every penny, and pays for itself. I can pump a bottle in about 5 minutes, and since its a double one I can do 2 in 5 minutes.

But in the end...

I absolutely love being a mother. I would go through everything a million times over to see my kids. Its a lot of work, but all worth it. The first weeks are the hardest, and get help if you need it. Dont be afraid to ask for it. It does get easier though, it already has for me. We have already have a semi routine down and I can only see it getting easier as she gets older. I know her cries, when shes hungry, what makes her happy, what doesnt. Dont worry when you become a mother you will know all of this. :)

An Update

Posted Sunday, July 06, 2008 1:15 PM

I just realized, I haven't updated in a week, and thats not like me. This is going to be long, so im warning you now :)

I went into the dr this past tuesday to talk to her about my possible PPD. Ironically when I went into the dr. I was feeling a lot better. I did however tell her how I was feeling and she didnt think it was PPD. She recommended me to a councelor.

I called this councelor to make an appointment and couldnt get in, until late july which is useless. Also to top things off, my insurance doesnt want to even cover half of this councelor, and I know they cost an arm and a leg. I called my dr. back but couldnt talk to her, I had to talk to the dumb receptionist *sigh*

I ended up going back to the dr on thursday to talk to her again. I was still feeling better. So for 3 days I felt really good. Alyssa had only been waking up twice at night to eat then going right back to sleep so I was getting at least 7 hours of sleep. When I talked to my dr. again, she didnt think it was PPD. Now that I think about it, I dont think I have PPD.

I think it was a huge combination of sleep deprivation, and breastfeeding so much. But things have been getting better so my attitude is better.

Last week before I called my dr. My husband and I had a huge blowup. I was really feeling alone, and like he wasnt helping. He would get up in the morning get on the computer play Call of Duty for hours, eat, lay down, get up play again, go to the gym, come home shower, play AGAIN until about 4am. Can you see why I was upset?

This went on for about 4 days until I had a HUGE _bitch fit. I came out of the room and just started screaming at the top of my lungs. He had NO CLUE what I was yelling about until mid convo. He really didnt know what he did wrong, which made me even more mad so we went in circles for a few minutes. Then he finally got a clue.

He tells me that he cant really help out when im breastfeeding. I told him there are times when she is fed and changed but still fussy, he can take her then. I also told him theres times when shes just awake, and likes to be held and he can bond with her then and give me time to take a 30 minute nap or even get in the shower. I had been taking showers when she would take a quick nap, the was the only time I could get one in, this was the same for when I wanted to eat.

So the past 3 days he has been helping out a lot. He has changed most of the diapers, and I just started introducing a bottle so he has started feeding her, its given me a huge relief.

This morning he took her fed her and gave me a break for 2 hours, so I took a nice hot bath. Oh to get a nice bath after almost 4 weeks of no bath was heaven! I just soaked and thought about nothing. I got out and ate some food at a nice slow pace because I didnt have to rush before she woke up. Then I boiled her bottles and pumped some more milk.

So my husband has made up for being an _ass last week, if he didnt, he was going to get the evil eye for weeks!

Postpartum Depression

Posted Saturday, June 28, 2008 2:26 AM

I am pretty sure this is what I have.

Plus the more I look at my husband the more I want to hit him over the head with a hammer. But thats another entry im going to talk about why I think I have PPD

This is what I am feeling

• Feeling tired after delivery, broken sleep patterns, and not enough rest often keeps a new mother from regaining her full strength for weeks.
• Feeling overwhelmed with a new, or another, baby to take care of and doubting your ability to be a good mother.
• Feeling stress from changes in work and home routines. Sometimes, women think they have to be "super mom" or perfect, which is not realistic and can add stress.
• Having feelings of loss — loss of identity of who you are, or were, before having the baby, loss of control, loss of your pre-pregnancy figure, and feeling less attractive.
• Having less free time and less control over time. Having to stay home indoors for longer periods of time and having less time to spend with the your partner and loved ones.

And these are the symptoms

Feeling restless or irritable

Feeling sad, hopeless, and overwhelmed

Crying a lot

Having no energy or motivation

Eating too little or too much

Sleeping too little or too much

Trouble focusing, remembering, or making decisions

Feeling worthless and guilty

Loss of interest or pleasure in activities

Withdrawal from friends and family

Everything there is how I am feeling. I just looked it up to see if I have it, and Im pretty sure I do. Im calling my dr first thing on monday morning, to see her. I probably should have called earlier this week, but I thought it would go away.

I am exhausted emotionally and physically, and I just want to ball up in a corner and cry

Im going to try and get some sleep for an hour now.