The Nest

The hardest five days I have ever had to go through

Posted Sunday, June 15, 2008 2:29 PM

When I was released from the hospital, Aly had a blood test to see if she had jaundice. Her levels were borderline, so the dr wanted to see her the next day. Great I just get out and have to leave the house the next day.

We go in, and get another blood test, and its 5 points higher. Her tells me what to do to bring it down. i.e feeding her has much as possible, walking in the sun, have her under florescent lights. I did all this, and the next day we go back. Its 6 points higher, so she has to be hospitalized. I had an emotional breakdown. I was hysterical, I couldnt talk I just couldnt believe this was happening.

I had to hurry up and pack her and I some stuff. We get there and get a room, and told she has to stay under the lights from 12-18 hours. I couldnt hold her. When I had to feed her I had to just hold the bottle. Everytime I fed her I cried. I just wanted to hold her and couldnt. Well 18 hours turned into 24 hours. I just wanted to take her and run out of there. After 24 hours I got to hold her, and breastfeed her. Oh yeah I couldnt bf her because there was no way to tell how much she was getting, so I had to pump and freeze.

By the time I got to hold her, I didnt put her down. She even looked at me like she wanted to say "where have you been?" I felt so bad. Today she finally got released after dropping to a very low level, so now we;re at home. I am so glad to be here. In the past 5 days I have gotten about 5-6 hours of sleep, so I am a little stressed (understatement) out. Here are some pics of her