The Nest

ahhh

Posted Tuesday, June 17, 2008 2:20 AM

"sleep when the baby sleeps" I get this all the time, but I cant do it. Aly sleeps 2 hours at a time, so this is the time I get to...

Take a shower
Eat
Catch up on websites
Spend time with Haley
Spend time with Aaron
Call people
Oh and stare at my baby :)

Its hard to nap during the day, and I know that I should, but its still hard. My body is completely drained from being in the hospital, twice. Going to the dr the day after I was released, and Aly eating every hour because my milk hadnt come in.

Aaron told me today that I looked white as a ghost, and I needed to rest. I didnt listen I felt like I had things to do. My MIL has been a huge help though. When she is here she cooks and cleans. While she does that im laying down, but not sleeping, watching tv. *sigh*

I also havent had much of an appetite since having Aly. Im not suprised, I was the same way with Haley. A lot of it has to do with stress, I dont eat when im stressed. I need to eat more though, especially since I am breastfeeding.

Everything is overwhelming right now. I went from having one child to 2, and juggling them both is hard. Aly needs me the most, but Haley needs me also. I dont want her to feel neglected, so I include her in everything. When Im feeding Aly, I let her rub her head and play with her feet. She helps getting diapers for changes and when Aly is awake, and in her bouncer or swing,  I let Haley play with her.

Aarons been great also. He gets up with me at night, even though he cant feed her. He tells me "if you have to get up, i'll get up also" he's so sweet.

But with all the help, I still feel overwhelmed. I know its only been 6 days, but everything ive been through since she was born would drive any mother crazy. I cried like crazy when Aly had to be in the hospital, I even got a migraine from it.

Now that I am home I am a little more clam but still on edge. I think I just need about 10 minutes to collect myself.