I do NOT want to go back to work
Posted
Monday, June 23, 2008 5:18 AM
I realized that I only have 4 weeks left of maternity leave, and im freaking out. Im not ready to go back to work. I dont want to leave my baby for 4-8 hours a day. Im thinking about talking to my boss about only having me work 4 hours for a week or 2 to have me get used to being away then easing into an 8 hour shift, but with my luck she will tell me no.
If we could afford it, I wouldn't even work. Aaron feels bad that I have to go back to work but with the cost of living, gas, groceries, plus diapers and other baby stuff, theres no way only one person can work right now. At least he will be home with the baby until the end of september when he goes back to work.
Oh yeah he is taking an extra 6 weeks off for paternity leave, at the end of august. I already told him to take lots of pictures for when I go back to work and send them to my phone.
I cried today thinking about going back to work, its too much right now. I shouldnt even be thinking about it, seeing as I still have a full month left, but im being realistic.
I just love being with my 2 girls so much, that im afraid I will miss so much when im gone 
In other news that is actually good news
-we're going to Avila in a couple weeks. It will be interesing to go on vaction witha newborn. We've never done it before
-We went to Applebees a few days ago, and Aly slept the whole time. We didnt know how she would be, but she did well. Right when we were leaving she woke up and just looked around, it was a good family outing.
Posted by
CherryHeart
Filed under: work, Alyssa