The Nest

Of course, in that same breath...

Posted Tuesday, January 22, 2008 5:07 AM

It looks like it may not be as easy as we thought it would be to again pursue our original plan.  Thus, I really have no idea what we're going to do with my husband's probable upcoming job loss (his boss wants to close the school he works at or sell it to him, but it would not be a good investment on our end).  It's hard just leaving it in God's hands, but I know it's taken care of.  It's just hard sometimes.

Similarly, this stuff with immigration is just nuts.  I know we basically applied at the perfectly wrong time.  It leaves me filled with guilt for not just doing a documented marriage earlier, for not making it to Korea years ago, for not putting my foot down and saying no, we're getting married at this time (which was about 6 months before our actual wedding date, a perfectly swell time for processing), etc.  I know it's not my fault, but I can't help feeling as though I've brought on all of these hardships myself.  Again, this is not true.  We are where He wants us, but I do feel like such a screw up sometimes.

Anyway, I should stop bashing myself.  The report I read today has offered a little glimpse of hope, though we both just laught at the idea of seeing something from immigration in the mail anymore.  We'll see, I suppose.

Sorry for the downer.  :\