One of those weeks...
Posted
Friday, January 25, 2008 10:18 PM
It's been a rough week for us. We started feeling especially discontent about how long it has been taking for us just to get an appointment notice for his green card, so we looked into it. Our attorney sent our case to a more general processing center instead of the more "specialized" one in Chicago, which would have probably had our green card to us already. Our case is still being processed, but it is taking longer than it needs to. Our life is seriously on hold because of this.
So anyway, yesterday was filled with a lot of tears and me yelling for the sake of yelling. We were just beyond upset with our attorney (who had yelled at my husband earlier in the day, basically short of saying, "Shut up and wait!"), and it all consequently made me feel upset with others. I emailed our attorney, and he basically echoed the "stop bothering me and just wait" notion he had provided over the phone earlier. I wound up feeling so angry at the situation, yet so guilty because I KNOW it is all in God's hands and that everything happens for a reason. I know I should have been seeking peace and comfort, but I let my anger and distress take such a hold of me.
Today has been much, much better, though. I called USCIS, which our attorney wouldn't do because he is "very busy" and it's "almost impossible to talk to someone there (USCIS)", and we got the simple answers we needed to put our minds at ease, answers he should have had for us. I'm not as upset at the feeling of wasting money for an attorney when we didn't even want to hire one as I am at the waste of time this has all caused. There are people who applied in November, four months after us, who already have their appointment notices, while we do not. We can't move forward and make plans on where to go next because of the uncertainty of when we will get his green card.
I know it's hard to understand why it's such a big deal that we have it when he can legally work here and whatnot, but it seriously impacts everything in our lives right now. Having calmed down, I'm better able to put my focus on God and His will for us again. It's hard even for me to believe how angry I was yesterday because I am not an angry person at all (I am a cry baby, though...). Today certainly attests to His perfect will, as I made yesterday my last day of work before starting my new job on Monday, and my husband didn't need to teach at noon due to testing this evening. This led to us being able to get a lot of things done that needed to be regarding our case and other matters, so I am very grateful for His awesome plans. ^^;;
I have to keep remembering the visual I wrote about in another post, which was God holding his green card, just waiting for the right time to put it in our mailbox. :)
Anyway, that's enough of that for now. I have to start looking into new possible job positions for my husband, so we'll see how that goes. @__@