Can't focus!
Posted
Wednesday, April 09, 2008 3:18 PM
So after dinner last night, I was talking with my husband about how I'm worried that the new school won't necessarily do the business we're hoping to do and that we'll basically never be able to have a baby because I don't want to be working full time as the breadwinner after the baby is born. Suddenly, as though a light bulb had finally clicked (it takes blondes awhile), an idea came to me for a sort of backup plan if all else failed. It's basically the reverse of any other back-up plan we've thought of, but it makes a lot of sense.
I think we finally can say that we are safe to start TTC soon without any fear of how the school will turn out. We were talking about how it's already April...how it feels like just yesterday, it was the beginning January, and we were starting to get super anxious about not having received an immigration interview...how time felt like it was dragging...how far away July seemed for TTC...
Now, we are exactly one month away from our interview, and it feels like baby time is getting so close! We hope to be pregnant before September so that when we visit his family for the holidays (Korean holiday), we can show them our ultrasound to announce that we are expecting. It would just be so great to do it in person with his entire family around. Of course, there's no guarantee on how long it will take to get pregnant, but we'll see. ^^;;
So I totally can't focus at work today because of mega babies-on-the-brain. I keep checking sites to learn as much as I can. I'm planning my pre-pregnancy check-up (insurance is effective as of May 11th), how I want to interview potential prenatal care persons...I've purchased a basal thermometer...lol, I'm silly. It just seems so close now!
I will admit to being a bit anxious, though. I've always kept this very private because some Christians do not agree with it, but we chose the pill as our birth control method of choice after a lot of research on how the different methods work and whether or not in coincides with our beliefs. Anyway, the point is that of course, my cycles have been perfectly normal while on the pill. However, before I started on it, I always had issues with regularity, mostly because of the stress in my life. I feel like I am at a much better stage both physically and mentally, but it still worries me that it might cause issues. We'll see. I told my husband, "But since I'm eating so much healthier now and since I've got your hormones now, too, I think it should be fine." XD (Referring to the benefits of marriage since we both waited, lol...) It's in God's hands! We'll have a baby when he deems it the right time.
Anyway, time to finish up my break! More from me soon, for sure.