The Nest

Seriously, I love my husband.

Posted Thursday, April 10, 2008 3:51 PM

So like yesterday, I have BOTB like woh today.  It's just really neat because now, I am feeling a lot of anticipation.  This will sound corny, but my heart keeps fluttering at the thought of discovering we're expecting (and I've been examined many times--it's not a murmur!  ^.~).

I checked last night to see if I was on my last pack or if I had one left, and I do have one left.  I've kept thinking about it, and I very shyly emailed my husband today (no prviacy here!) asking him if it would be okay if this pack were my last so I can get my body ready, even though there's the chance we could get pregnant earlier than expected.  He is so adorable.  His responded with a short and sweet email and said that it's fine, that we would see what God has planned for us.  I started crying, lol. 

He's so ready for a baby, but we've been trying to make things "perfect" before we even started trying.  We have no idea what direction our lives will take us, so it's almost a little silly.  If it were simply a financial goal or buying a house, then fine, let's save up $X or let's get into a house first.  However, there's just so much we are waiting on to see that it doesn't make sense to put our lives on hold to that degree, especially when we both want a baby so much.  We'll see how everything plays out!

So we won't be trying right away--like I said, I'm going to begin charting and doing all of that fun stuff.  However, if God wants to give us a little one, I'm not going to complain!  I am just so happy.  I love feeling like we are actually taking one step closer to something so huge.  Even if things don't play out like we hope they will, we will have a little ball of sunshine to brighten our days.

Anyway, enough mushiness!  Back to business!