So, I did it....
Posted
Friday, April 04, 2008 2:33 PM
I bit the bullet. I know most of you on here may think this isn't as big of a deal, and that we are married people and should be able to talk to each other about anything...but I did it last night. I finally brought up the topic of TTC. I have to say, it didn't really go as smoothly as I had hoped, but then again it didn't go bad either. It went alittle like this:
ME: "So, what do you think about about trying to have a baby?"
DH: " Whaaaaaaaaaaatttttt??!?!?! NO!"
Silence......fan clicking...........................DH: "I mean I thought we were going to wait a year, this is shocking to me to hear this now"
ME: " Well, it could take us months to TTC...and we both want babies, why wait?"
DH: "This stresses me out....."
Then the rest of the night we jokes about being pregnant...things we could and couldn't do...but we never came to an agreement of if we would start TTC. I know I stressed him out a bit, ontop of everything at work that stresses him out. I instantly thought, man I should of waited till we were on the beach in Key West, relaxed with a margarita to ask this question...so, I have to admit my heart hurts just alittle that he wasnt' instantly excited about TTC...and that he still doesn't seem to want to...so we will wait. I want him to be as excited about it as I am...I want this to be us wanting a baby, not me...so I guess I will be waiting.....and waiting....till he gives me a green light...I think I am going to refrain from bring this up again...I don't want to be a torn in his side...I was hoping for a ..."a baby? YES! I can't wait to have babies with you"
....So time to refocus on something else in my life...so I need to put a pause on nesting life, I will be back when TTC starts!....I might even be blogging, but have decided to stay off the boards, it just makes me want a baby even more....if I can stay away that is!