The Nest

Because it is Thursday...

Posted Thursday, April 10, 2008 10:01 AM

...and I feel like writing, I am here to to do just that.  Last night I had dinner with my SIL, the sameone who got married the week after me, and I think I am finally getting to where I understand her.  I think I am finally making a break through, and that just maybe be able to trust her and have the type of friendship with her that extends past SIL.  I saw a side of her after a few margaritas that was vonuerable and honest...and living a parallel live with her I can see how hard her marriage must be.  She is married to a cop who works like 3pm-11pm.  She works a normal 8-4 job....so the hours they over lap during the week is a few hours (and that is because she makes herself stay up until he gets home...)  Anyway, i sympthize with her.  I can't imagine how lonely that life is.  To eat alone, shower alone, get in bed alone...shop alone...etc.  She let me in last night and I really enjoyed getting to know that side of her, the friend side...with that said I am still standing behind my decision not to share TTC when that stage in my life comes up, I just don't want to put anything on the table that could cause any grounds for competition or envy...or any other of those ugly scenrios that could come up.  TTC will be mine and DH business, and once we are past the first critcal 3 months....then I will share with everyone else, including SIL.

So, we had our first blow at house hunting...we found a house...it was a jewel I tell you.  PERFECT in every way.  Trees, big yard...move in ready...I really could go on and on.  We saw it Saturday and it had been on the market 8 days...we were thrilled...by Monday when we called to get a appointment to see it, it already had a contract on it-it actually had a contract on day 5!!!  Heartbroken I tell you, I never thought I would get heartbroken over a house.  We made the mistake of going to see it anyway...and the inside was as perfect as the out.  So, we have our fingers crossed that something goes wrong with the pending contract...we can always hope right?  *doubtful*

The TTC and DH has not come up again.  So, I got back on BC on Sunday...and now I will wait.  I was going to start tracking my AF, but decided I should wait till TTC before coming obsessed with charting, I think it would make the waiting harder (plus charting and BC don't seem to go together)....Frustrating.  I want a puppy, he says no we aren't ready....I want a house, we need to wait till October....I want a baby, no we aren't ready.  I know we both need to be on the same page, but why do I always have to step back down where he wants to be, and he isn't stepping up to where I want to be?

Ok, well I guess I should start my Thursday at work...I might visit the boards today:)