Errrrr...Did I or Didn't I...and When?
Posted
Monday, October 22, 2007 1:01 PM
I chart. I didn't want to chart. I wanted to be that girl who just goes off birth control, has lots of sex, wakes up one day and realizes she hasn't started her period yet, takes a pregnancy test, and wha-la is happily jumping up and down with her husband because she's having a baby.
But turns out, that is so not me. I'm a charter. I actually like to know what's going on. I want to be on top of things at all times. It's like a science experiment for me, and I genuinely look forward to waking up each morning and taking my temperature, entering it online, and seeing what the magical folks at FF have to say about my cycle.
Right now though, I'm a bit frustrated because my chart is showing that I ovulated, but it changes the ovulation date daily based on new temperatures I've entered. I find myself chart-obsessed, entering imaginary future temperatures just to see what FF might change. I know I can't do anything about it...I can't change when I ovulated based on what FF says...I either did or I didn't and it's done now...nothing more I can do. But did I on cycle day 12, 13, or 16? FF can't decide, not until more information is received.
I want to just leap into the future mornings of the next week or so, see what my temperature will be those days, and record it so I know what the official word on the matter is, then jump back to today and just rest assured knowing what the future is going to hold. Since that's not possible, I guess I'll just stay chart-obsessed until my blood test on Saturday tells me whether or not I in fact ovulated. Then it's another week after that before I know if my period is coming or if I am in fact pregnant, the reason for all this nonsense in the first place.
Posted by
edmo
Filed under: TTC