Crappy weather, crappy mood
Posted
Tuesday, January 08, 2008 8:12 PM
Well... I spent all day yesterday creating a spreadsheet of caterers (shh... don't tell my boss...) I e-mailed it to my mom, who expressed on Saturday her opinion that I should indeed have the wedding catered (still not sure it's in the budget). My mom e-mail's back "wow, looks like you did a lot of work." Yeah, thanks for your input mom. Why is it that all you want to do is talk about [read: give your input] my wedding until it actually comes down to the possibility that you might have to pay for something or freaking help me decide anything. The fiance wasn't much help here either. I said, "I'm going to e-mail you the catering spreadsheet too" "please don't"... My MOH told me if I needed help to let her know, but what she wants is to make the food for the wedding (not that she has any experience, just desire) and I feel like I take advantage of her all the time, so I don't want to burden her with this decision. Well, hell, I guess this is just my wedding.
In fact, I'm not even sure this is my wedding. I don't like weddings, I'm sure I've said that before. And here I am several months in with a designer dress (that will need freaking expensive alterations that I don't even want to think about yet), a guest list of almost 200, and a spreadsheet of caterers. Some how I feel like I cheated myself by not getting a used dress. This isn't the wedding I wanted, I wanted cheap and easy. At least the recepition location and amphitheater together for the day only cost $105. There's cheap and easy for you.
And what if it rains? "Bring an umbrella" will have to be on the invites, but what if it pours, utterly pours, I have no plan for that (you can always insert a "yet" here, but I have a big enough to do list as is.)
Ugh, I guess I'm just not in the wedding mood today. And it's crappy weather. Yesterday we had thunderstorms and tornados (yeah in Wisconsin in January). It's still raining today. I better stop typing before I say some things I regret in the future.