JackieMac824's Blog

I am a pregnancy physic now

2008-10-03T15:17:00Z

Yep that right. See what happen was I was looking at some photos on facebook of a wedding that we did not attend and I saw one of DH's cousin sitting at a table and I said to myself she is totally pregnant - we are so what close - so I e-mailed her just asking her how everything was and she e-mailed me back and said she was pregnant with her 3rd child and due in April. She is only a year older then me and on number 3. Now that makes two family memebers due in April - Christmas should be fun - anyway I am a bit sad because she knows all about our IF and she told me this summer that she wanted another baby but she was going to wait until the new year to start trying so that hopefully I would be pregnant by then and we could have our children grow up together - I know I am being silly - I cannot expect people to wait for me because I may never be pregnant - it just hurts a little - because I want to be them so badly - I want to make my own pregnancy announcement. It seems to be getting harder and harder for me to deal with pregnancy announcements.

Today also marked a very sad anniversary for me - My mother passed away 8 years ago today. I miss her so much - everyday - she was a wonderful mother and person.

Surgery Update

2008-10-02T14:00:00Z

Dh went back to work yesterday and it was not good. Since he refused to tell his boss about the surgery he boss did not know and pushed him really hard yesterday - when he got home he was in alot of pain. I have to go after work tonight and get tighter underwear for him because he need more support and Dh is going to the Urologist on his lunch break and asking for a doctor's note to be on light duty - I guess DH is going to have to tell his boss after all that he had surgery. I hope today is a better day for him.

IUI # 6 - BFFN and DH's surgery

2008-09-26T18:25:00Z

I got my period while waiting for DH to come out of surgery yesterday. I did not even have to test this time. We are taking a three month break to see if Dh's surgery helped any and I will have the Lap surgery in the meantime - we will start treatments again in January - maybe a new year will mean a new baby - for the next three months I am going to try and get my body back into some kind of shape and just enjoy my marriage and try not to think to much about TTC - even though it is always in the back of my mind.

DH's surgery went well. We had to be there at 6 am and got home about 2 pm yesterday. He is doing okay - a little sore but he is not in any pain thanks to the pain medicine. I hope this surgery will make a difference - we will just have to wait and see.

Here's hoping to a break cycle BFP - a girl can have hope.

DH's surgery is in two days

2008-09-23T12:50:00Z

I am so worried. I am so concerned about his surgery and I am afraid that something is going to go wrong - I know it is a minor surgery but it is still a surgery and there can still be complications. Plus the fact that I am going to be all alone to get him home - I am sure he will be fine but what if he is not - he is alot bigger than me. Plus it is going to hurt me to see him in so much pain. I wish we did not have to do this - why oh why can't we be like normal people and just have sex and get pregnant. Plus another thing I am worried about is that DH refuses to tell his boss about the surgery. He has a very physical job and has to be on light duty for two weeks after the surgery - of coruse he does not want to tell his boss what kind of surgery he is having but I told DH he could tell his boss that he is having hernia surgery because it is the same kind of recovery but he will not do it - I am worry he is going to work too hard and mess something up and end up back in the hospital. I am a worry wart. I just hope it all goes well, that he is not in too much pain and that he has a quick recovery.

The Melting Pot

2008-09-19T13:36:00Z

I went to the melting pot for the first time last night and I have mixed reviews about it - I have been waiting to go there for such a long time and since it was restaurant week in Philadelphia we decided to go. Everything was at a set price - it was only $ 35 per person - which is way cheaper than it would normal would be.

The first course was the cheese fondue - we decided to get Chedder but there is tons you can choose from. It came with apples, a couple different types of bread and some vegatables. It was very very good - but I love Cheese.

The second course was a salad - again a good array of choices - I choose the house salad and it was very good.

The third course was the entree which I was not so crazy about - they give you a choice of broth that you would like your meat to cook in - we choose one with red wine - it smelled very good. But they bring the meat out and it is raw. I did not care for that - and you are suppose to put the raw meat in the fondue broth pot for 5 minutes and cook it yourself - but I was freaking out because I was thinking what if we did it wrong and got sick - it would of been better if the meat was brought to us already cooked and we just put it in the broth for a minute to give it flavor. So I did not care for that part at all.

The fourth course and the best one of all was the chocolate fondue - it was so so good - we choose the white chocolate and milk chocolate - yin and yang but again there is many to choose from. It came with pound cake, cheese cake, brownies, rice crispies, bananas and strawberries. It was devine. I really loved it.

Another thing was it was a very long night - each course took a long time and we were there for 3 1/2 hours - I did not get home until 12:30 - it was crazy.

So all in all it was pretty good - if I ever go back I would just do the Cheese fondue and the Chocolate fondue because they were the best.

We have decided

2008-09-18T17:28:00Z

John and I talked last night and we have made some decisions as far as TTC. If this cycle does not work we are taking a break - a long break. We have decided we will take a 3 month break from TTC. 1. To get my sanity back 2. Because I am very tired of back to back treatment cycles and 3. Because it takes at least three month to see any result from John's surgery. During our break I will have the lap surgery but that is it. Hopefully we will start treatment again in January - I am hoping that the doctor will let us do three more IUI with Clomid before moving on to IVF - but I heard you can only do 6 Clomid cycles - we have already done 5. I do not want to do injectable because we would have to pay for them OOP and I rather put the money toward IVF. If we are not allowed then we will just have one IUI cycle and then move to IVF in March or April - I guess - but I hope it will not come to that.

Thought of the day - if I get pregnant this cycle - we will be able to tell John's family at Thanksgiving.

I have no symptoms - I doubt that I will test either - I will just wait for AF to come and if she does not come then I will test - because my testing day is the day of John's surgery and if it is positive then I would want to celebrate with him and I would not be able to. Plus I am sure we will be too busy that day anyway.

Signs this cycle is going to work and I am going to be pregnant with twins

2008-09-16T17:33:00Z

1. I saw a billboard this weekend that said Congratulations you are having twins.

2. Me and DH were sitting on our porch last night and this mother walked pass our house with one year old twin boys - we had never seen them before.

3. I then went in and turned on HGTV and the title of the show that was on was "Making room for twins"

They have to be signs - right??? It has to be a sign that this IUI worked and that I am pregnant with twins.

Interesting weekend

2008-09-15T12:50:00Z

On Friday after work I went to Target and got a few Halloween decorations - I get a few items every year - I cannot wait to decorate. I love Halloween it is my favorite holiday. I love giving out candy to all the children in the cute costumes and watching scary movies and we usually go to one of the scary movies that is out in the theater Halloween weekend. I have been to way too many haunted house - and every year we go to Linville Orchards to pick out our pumpkins and get pies - I love pumpkin pie and hot choclate in Oct. It is my favorite time of year.

On Sat I went to a wedding and it was the most ghetto wedding I have ever been at. But probably the most fun wedding I have ever been too. Everything was plastic - the table cloths, the plates and forks - it was so funny. I went with my cousin - it was his friend that he grew up with - it was even in this seedy part of Philadelphia and we had to be buzzed into the reception. But I had fun.