Posted Tuesday, July 01, 2008 9:56 AM
I had a very busy weekend. On Friday we went to dinner - we go to dinner every Friday night with two other couples - it is just this thing we do.
On Sat. I celebrated my best friend Ricky's 27th birthday downtown on the waterfront at the Moslulu - it was so much fun - it was very fancy and expensive - but worth it - plus it was great weather and they had such nice views from the boat.
Then on Sunday I went to the baby shower - it was not as bad as I made it out to be in my head - I did not even have one single sad moment - I just did not think about myself at all and there was 4 other pregnant women there - they all looked so cute. I was very proud of myself - there was even another pregnancy announcement that day as well but I did not get upset at all - I was just happy for the girl - she got so many things - I could not believe it - even all of her furniture was bought for her.
Yesterday I went food shopping and I spotted a pregnant women that I went to school with - I just turned right around in the isle so I did not have to talk to her - I know it sounds horrible - but of course she stood in line right next to me - I tried to avoid her but she spotted me and started talking to me- she is due anyday now - she looked so cute, she is one of those girls who is skinny everywhere except the belly. When I got home I must admit I was a bit sad - I guess you have your good days and your bad days - Sunday was a good day dealing with our infertility - yesterday not such a good day.
Posted Monday, June 30, 2008 11:09 AM
One more week until my appointment with the new RE. I called our PCP this morning and got the referrals - I will call the new RE office tomorrow to make sure they got them because you can never be too careful - I have had a few times when I called to referrals and the doctors office never sent them. I do not want anything to stop us now. I will make a copy of all my records this week and fill out all the forms to bring with me - I am actually getting excited and hopefully - I hope he has good things to say or at least a good plan to get us pregnant.
Posted Thursday, June 26, 2008 2:02 PM
I think all of these fertility drugs that I am taking are really messing with my body - first of all I use to just get AF - no problems at all - not cramping, headaches, bloating - nothing - I would have it for 5 days and that will be that - well fast forward to now - after months of taking fertility drugs - this cycle has been the worst - right now I have such bad cramping - and since I started doing IUI's AF has been different - what I mean is that I spot for three days - have red flow for about two days and then two days of brown - which never happened before and now I can feel when AF is coming, I have the pains, aches - backaches, and bloating - when girls in high school would stay home because of their periods - I always wondered why - now I know why - I feel horrible today. I bet it is all the drugs - if they are doing this to me now - I wonder what they will do to me in the future.
Posted Wednesday, June 25, 2008 9:37 AM
I got the best anniversary gift - it is not romantic but I love it - DH got me the new Pink Ipod Nano - I am so excited - I have been wanting an Ipod for so long - I have already started downloading my CD's onto it - my only question is how do you delete songs once they are on the Ipod - I have no clue - so if someone could answer that - that would be great - TIA.
Posted Tuesday, June 24, 2008 12:58 PM
Today is my 2 year Wedding Anniversary - I cannot believe it has been two years already.
I busted out the wedding ablums last night - I just love looking at them.
Tonight we are going to dinner at the same place where our wedding reception was held - we did this last year too - so maybe we will make it a tradition.
Even though I was very angry yesterday and upset and even though the sad feelings have not gone away I am going to try and just focus on Dh tonight - how much I love him and why I am so happy we are married - he is a great man.
Posted Monday, June 23, 2008 3:24 PM
I got two e-mails today of people telling me that they are pregnant - I cannot get away from it.
Plus to add insult to injury I am starting to spot - I thought maybe just maybe I could get a break cycle BFP - no such luck.
I am tired of infertility - I have had enough - I am tired of every single month being a let down - I feel like I am never going to get a BFP.
Plus I could just smack my co-irker - she is suppose to be answer the phones but instead she is talking away to another co-worker and made me miss an important phone call - yet she never gets in trouble for this.
I am drinking a nice big glass of wine tonight and going tanning after work - take that IF.
Posted Friday, June 20, 2008 10:37 AM
I had my work review this morning - it went well - I got a 3% raise and a extra weeks vacation - because I have been with the company for 5 years - yay me.
I have a baby shower to go to next Sunday - I have decided to get a kick ass outfit - because if you look good - you feel good. I have decided I am not going to watch her open all the gifts like I always do - it is just going to be to hard - all of those cute baby things - but I will go and be good.
I have a wedding to go to in August and I was out shopping with my friend last night and saw the cutest dress - my friend made me try it on and it looked great so I bought it - I was not sure about it - I do not wear dresses that often - actually the only other dress I own is my wedding dress - but anyway - I took it home and wanted to try it on for DH - if he liked it then I would keep it - so I put it on and came downstairs and he said wow - you look so beautiful - awww - how sweet - so needless to say - I am keeping the dress - now I just have to find shoes to go with it. DH even said he wants me to go out and find him a tie to match the dress - so we both look good at the wedding - he is too cute.
Posted Tuesday, June 17, 2008 11:47 AM
I know this new doctor is going to say IVF - maybe I am jumping the gun. Maybe he won't. I am getting really impatient -I just want to know what to do next - I am a planner and I need to plan.
I hope this new RE can deal with me - I have alot of questions and I have alot of infromation for him and I like to write everything down.
My old RE and I started off very badly - I was telling John last night - his first strike was his office - it was so messy we could barely sit down - and I know that is silly - but I am a neat freak and I do not find it very professional that you bring your new clients into such a mess. The second strike was when I began writing down what he was telling us - I need to write things down to help me understand and refer back to my notes later - well he told me not to write -to put my pen and paper down - which I did not like and strike three came when he messed up my second IUI cycle - when I was the one who had to call the office and say I need to have my ultrasound early because if we wait I will have already ovulated - and I was right - they were wrong.
So finally to my point - I am hoping this doctor takes my questions, cares, and concerns into account - I intend to bring all of my documents - I document everything - including my periods for the past two years and I plan on bringing a pen and paper to write things down and I am hoping he does not brush me off and listens to me - and answers all of my questions. I guess we will see.