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DH's B-day today!

Posted Wednesday, May 21, 2008 6:08 PM

I'm trying to be happy today since it is DH's b-day (although I am a horrible wife because I had to get his card on my way to work this morning instead of getting it last night... duh). Today is ok I guess. I got my hair cut from shoulder length to a cute layered bob. We're going to see Indiana Jones tonight at 12:01. I should be excited, but I'm just not right now. I think part of it is that my grandfather left my cousin and me an annuity that is worth quite a bit of $$ (to me at least) and I have no clue what to do with it. I really miss him. He would have advice for me. I mean, he was a self-made man and I'm sure he would give me some ideas. The thing that I feel clueless about this whole thing and even though I know a little about annuities, it's just not enough right now. I know we're going to put some towards our cc debt, but I'm not sure where to put the rest. I think I am going to try and talk it over with DH tonight. I've been shutting everyone out lately, which is typical when someone close dies, but I think I need to open up to DH more. I mean, he was the person I talked to when my dad died so I should be able to open up to him. Maybe I just feel like he's so stressed with his job that I don't want to put anymore stress on him. In reality I think that the fact that I'm not talking to him about it is causing more stress in our relationship than if I did. One of the things is that he always interrupts me. Most of the time I know he is just joking around and trying to lighten the mood, but seriously, just let me get all of it out and I will be so much happier.... grrr....

Wasn't that a fun little tangent? Oh and yesterday I thought I was pg. AF came last week but it was lighter and shorter than usual. After breakfast, I felt nauseous the whole way to work and then just didn't really feel like myself all day. Since I feel more normal today, I have convinced myself that it was just a little bug due to DH being sick Monday night. Although Monday, DH went to Pottery Barn Kids after lunch and the sales lady asked when I was due and I told her that we just found out (which is a lie, obviously). We used to tell sales people things like that all the time, like before we were engaged/married we'd say "this is my husband/wife/FI" instead of gf/bf. Only on Monday, I felt bad about lying. I think it is because I want to be pg so badly.

Sorry, I just gave you a whole summary of the last 3 days backwards...Oops! You get the idea. This one is a little long, but I guess I just had to work some stuff out. Now I can go home and DH and I can do our dinner & a movie thing and all is well.