Happy 4th of July!!!
Posted
Friday, July 04, 2008 10:08 AM
I have started my holiday right I suppose. I went for a 30 minute bike ride and then took my dogs to the dog park while it was still cool enough that they wouldn't be too hot. So far so good, although a lot has been on my mind.
I talked to Chris last night about his attitude when we talked about getting me a new work outfit. Apparently I missed the part when he mentioned Banana Republic was having a sale. Which still kind of ticked me off because it was like he was giving me permission to go to BR but no place else. Whatever, I think we're going to go together tomorrow. I think I am PMSing because I've been getting really annoyed with him lately. It must annoy him that I am super moody for about a week every month.
I talked to my mom too, which has been a blast, let me tell you. Ever since her dad died, we can't have one, not one, conversation without her bringing up her inheritance. I still haven't told her that he left my cousin and I an annuity. And if it's not about her inheritance, it's about her siblings and how greedy they are and how they never paid attention to Grandpa unless they needed something and they never realized how much he cared about them but she did she knows she was his favorite because she is everyone's favorite. Whoo... sorry, little bit of a tangent there. My mom spent a lot of time while I was growing up out drinking and leaving me to be raised by my grandma and I think it has stunted her maturity a little. I know that's not nice to say and she is my mother and I love her, but she drives me nuts. Sometimes I feel like she is more of a sister than a mom. Whatever, I can't change her, I can only change my reaction to her. I suppose not getting annoyed would be the mature thing for me to do, but like I said, AF should be arriving soon, so my brain is telling me that maturity is optional right now, as twisted and backwards as that sounds. At least I realize it twisted. Once I start my new job I think I won't be nearly as stressed as I am right now.
Today is also my dad's birthday, rest his soul. While I was talking to my mom, I kept feeling like she wanted to remind me but didn't at the same time. I'm glad she didn't because then I might've just had to get a little b!itchy and I would rather not. Today has been a good day so far, no need to screw it up yet. It's amazing how much you think about when you are alone and don't have much to do (or you do have stuff to do but you don't really want to -- like cleaning). Getting mad and frustrated just seems like such a waste of energy right now.
Have a GREAT 4th of July everyone!