The Nest

Still Not Pregnant :(

Posted Monday, January 28, 2008 9:11 AM

Well...I was going on two days late and was starting to get hopeful that this might be our month, but by the time I got to work, AF arrived. Honestly, I had been expecting her to come and really didn't think I was pregnant, but it still sucks. We were both extremely busy this month and weren't really TTC but I find that I still always hold out for that tiny glimmer of hope. After everything that's happened between Mike and I over the past several months, I know it isn't the best time for us to have a baby. We both have so much else going on in our lives at the moment, some exciting and others that have been hard on our marriage, that we both feel we're being pulled in a million different directions and I know that a baby would just complicate things even more for us. It's still hard not to wish that every month may be "the one". We've decided to take a step back and focus more on our other goals for the time being. I plan on reading more about the baby subject and we both plan on trying to get our lives more on track with starting a family. We've also decided to start seeing a marriage counselor, seperately and together, to help us both hash out what we've been feeling and sort out all of the crazy emotions we've been dealing with since last June.

I know deep down that we are doing what is best, not only for us, but for our future children as well. Unfortunately, that doesn't make it any easier. We'll get there....when the time really is right.