Posted Friday, November 21, 2008 10:35 AM
First off, let me relate this story that illustrates my klutziness. I left my phone in the bathroom last night, so I started edging around the bed (in the dark) to go get it, trying to avoid tripping on clothes or slamming into the dresser, and WHAM! I walked right into the door frame, nose first. It hurt; I really thought my nose was going to be gushing blood when I turned on the light, but it didn’t. I did skin it a little, and this morning it is sore and swollen. “Mama always said my middle name should have been Grace.” I am special.
Anyways, I am really starting to get in the holiday mood. Thanksgiving is next week, the radio is playing Xmas music, it’s snowed 3 of the last 4 days, and my supplies and plans are starting to take shape.
Last night after I got in bed, I realized that the next day to POAS (34 day cycle, test one day late) would be Dec. 24. That’s right, the next test day is Christmas Eve! And then I wondered if maybe we are supposed to have a wonderful Christmas gift, and I fell asleep dreaming about getting a BFP at Christmas.
I am excited to start digging around my cards and supplies; I’m getting the space heater out of the attic tonight so I can keep the computer room/sewing room warm since I’ll be in there a lot the next couple of weeks. I’m also going to spend some spare time at work working on our Christmas card letter, and figuring out my plan for Black Friday, Cyber Monday, and all my other holiday shopping and coupon usage. I have a lot to do this weekend, but I am very excited about cleaning the house for winter, getting the windows sealed up good, and beginning the real fun of Christmas prep. My goal is to be finished with all the big things by Dec. 10 so I can just enjoy looking at the gifts under the tree and watching Xmas movies on tv.
Thanksgiving is 6 days away!
Posted Thursday, November 20, 2008 11:11 AM
Oh.My.God. I woke up this morning with killer cramps (I took Midol immediately, and 1.5hrs later it started to work). I still have some cramps, but I am definitely a Midol convert after the last few times. So, no Christmas announcement, but we still have another month before we have to take a break (so I can go to DH's cousin's wedding this fall). His cousin had a baby a week before our wedding, and the baby had problems and she couldn't come, and we don't want that to happen to his other cuz.
I never really blogged about DH's marathon. I took a bunch of pictures, and his dad and I drove all over the city to different cheering spots. We met some of his friends who came out to cheer for him and another guy, so it ended up being pretty fun (except getting stuck in traffic at the end). When we started TTC, I wanted to be pg by the marathon. From my EDD, I would've been 7-7.5mos pg at the marathon, which I had been super excited about back then. No biggie now, until we got to the event and I saw all these obviously pregnant women. Even almost 6 months later, it still felt bad. And we found out DH's friends are pregnant, and they got married 8 months after us. I don't know how to explain it, most times I'm fine with it, but there will always be those moments, those reminders, and that wondering. Sometimes I think I'm crazy, and I just want to be able to move on/forget it happened, but at the same time I don't want to forget it, because that would be forgetting my baby. I feel like I lost my faith in May. I wish I could get it back; sometimes I think I only have pieces of it. I just wish I could heal.
Gosh, I'm depressing lately. Anyways, I mostly am really okay, and I will be okay. On to happier subjects.
Nobody will send me their Christmas lists. How am I supposed to plan my Black Friday/Cyber Monday shopping without lists from people? Especially all the little kids (I know their moms have specific things they want).
I realized that Thanksgiving is a week from today. Q99 just started playing Xmas music. I have to start digging out the Xmas decoration boxes next week so they're ready to go on Friday. That means I also have to get all my candy-making stuff ready (luckily, I have been buying the melts a little along, so I only need to purchase a few more). I need to start my Xmas letter (for in our cards). I need to start addressing cards. We need to do pictures for the cards. That means I need to buy a tripod and read my camera manual. I am out of shape, and the company Xmas party is basically 2 weeks away. I need to go to the gym every day! Wasn't it just August? Time really does go by faster as you get older. We are possibly (hopefully) supposed to get snow again tonight. Exciting, even though it does make getting to work more effort (earlier prep and more drive time allowance).
I have decided to really, really try to stick to a 5k training schedule for my exercise routine. Running and eating healthy was how I lost weight last summer, and I know I can do it even in the winter. The 5k is something I'm physically capable of, but sticking to a real training schedule will help me. I'm going to try and do an actual race in February, something I haven't done since high school track and x-country. I think it will help me get rid of some flab, have (another) goal to work towards, and will help keep me in shape when we do eventually conceive again. I have read about lots of pregnant runners, and I really think I want to try and do that, but that means I have to be more consistent now. Tonight is community league volleyball, and I'm going to the gym after that, then tomorrow is a rest day according to my schedule. I like running outside, but hate the cold and dark, so I'm going to run in the gym during the week and run outside on the weekends when the sun is up.
Now that I wrote a book, depressed everyone, and maybe made people shake their heads in amazement and confusion about my randomly wandering mind, I'm going to shut up.
Posted Wednesday, November 19, 2008 9:19 AM
Another BFN this morning - like I didn't see that coming. I told DH last night I thought it would be, and that I felt like a failure, like there's something wrong with me. It was so easy the first time, why is it so hard now? He told me some people try for years, that I wasn't a failure, and that "we just need to have more sex". Even though I'm not Catholic (DH is), I like the idea of not using BC again and just go at it and trust that God will give us the right number of children.
I need to go for my annual pap, but I wanted to wait until I tested. Even though I want to change doctors, I'm nervous about it, and my plans are all out of whack. I was going to begin going to my primary care phys who can do all the normal pap type stuff. But she evidently left the practice, and I'm not sure who (if anyone) has taken over. Guess I need to put on my big girl panties and call and find out. Sometimes I wonder why I can't just find a good PCP and OBGYN like I had back home. I loved my GYN back there, and here it seems I get flip-flopped around to crappy doctors. And then I also think, well if I get my physical in April, maybe I can just wait until then and get it all done at once? But I don't know if that's a good idea. I've never had anything abnormal except the m/c. And April will also have been one year of TTC. It just is all so nuts, and I'm having enough issues getting ready for the holidays and all the travel in the next month. Where's my secretary to take care of this for me?
Alright. Whining done.
I will be excited to have this weekend to get all set up and ready for the big holiday maelstorm. I feel like this is my last weekend to thoroughly clean the house and prepare before holiday cheer takes over. I'm going to do such lovely things as clean and seal windows, take the dog and cats to the vet, watch football, mulch my flowerbeds, shop for Christmas (and some winter apparel for me), switch out summer and winter clothes, organize the attic . . . ah, the joy.
Posted Tuesday, November 18, 2008 9:02 AM
It blew snow all yesterday, and last night we came out of the basketball game to snow covered ground and bushes. It was so pretty. I hate cold, but I like snow.
I've started my Black Friday research. I'm one of the crazies that gets up at 4am the day after Thanksgiving and Christmas to do my shopping (have to, since I usually have to be at work by 8:30). I still have a few tough people to figure out, but I am well on my way with ideas for most.
POAS - I'm not feeling too optimistic, but we'll see. I was thinking maybe, since I had cramps 6dpo, have been dozing off lots (in the car Thursday night, at the game last night), and have had some stomach weirdness, but I seem to be mostly back to normal now that I'm back on my regular schedule. It was probably just the travel.
Posted Monday, November 17, 2008 9:45 AM
The weekend was good. DH finished his marathon; I am so proud of him. Now he's in recovery mode. Wednesday is POAS day if AF's not here by then. At work, they decided (after everyone accepted their Xmas party invites) that they were not going to cover all of the rooms this year . . . it's still pretty cheap b/c they'll cover part of it, but it's the principal of the thing, and I'm looking for things to cut, not things to add. Almost makes me want to back out on principle. Oh, and we'll still get a bonus, but it's not as much as last year. Grr. We constantly get told how our company is doing so much better than all these other competitors, but they cut our bonus and then screw with our Xmas party? I know I should be grateful, but it's weird when you get told how awesome the company is doing and then they screw with stuff. The bonus especially gets me b/c that was part of what they said to hire me was I got XX amount bonus each year and that would bump my salary some. Well, that's not what I'm getting this year, and it's frustrating. My mom is pissed about our holiday plans, and I completely understand - DH has basically made the plans and glossed over my concerns, and I don't even know if I can get all the leave I will need yet. This year is supposed to be about saving my vacation days, and now he's using ALL of them for me. I tried to tell him all my issues with things last night, and he said well he was going to MA, and I could spend the time with my family if I wanted; he didn't care.
Urgh. This is all such bullcr*p, and I am tired of it already. I really want to get our parents together and let them duke it out b/c I'm tired of trying to switch holidays and appease everyone.
Posted Wednesday, November 12, 2008 1:06 PM
I am here, just thought I'd let everyone know since I haven't blogged in a few. Just not much going on - being a boring married lady.
I promise I will get Halloween and tailgate pics up - they are on FB for those who are my friends there, but they don't want to transfer to here. One day.
I got so much done on my day off yesterday! We don't get many paid holidays, only when the Federal Reserve is closed, which isn't often. Yesterday I was off for Veteran's day. I did dishes, laundry, put away all clothes in the bedroom, made the bed, made the guest bed, planted bulbs, cleaned out my pots and put them in storage, mulched the peonies, began sewing the Xmas tree skirt, exercised, went to choir practice, watched TV, scrubbed the shower curtain liner good, rinsed the dust off the cars. Like all holidays, it made me miss my days of tutoring part-time and my old daily routine. Ah well.
Monday (6dpo) I had some cramps. Weird because I don't ever remember that ever happening before, and it was not intestinal, it was uterine. Whatever, we shall see soon enough.
Thursday night DH and I are driving to Richmond (he's running the Richmond marathon Sat. morning). I'll have Friday off to be a bum, but I was thinking since I'll be near good shopping, perhaps I can work on my Christmas shopping. DH said he's not walking around a mall all day, but he could drop me off and then come pick me up (the closest mall is 20 mins, and I'm still not great at getting around the city - it's easy to get lost).
DH came up with a new idea for the holidays (family is not coming down from MA for Tgiving - we're going up the day after Xmas for a couple of days, Xmas with my fam like normal, other issues with ski trip, may be moved). He thought that we could invite his parents to Tgiving at our house, we could cook, make the turkey, use our formal china for the first time. Could be h*ll, could be fun. I have to work Friday, so I'll be able to escape during the day. And all that extra help for decorating Friday evening. Hmmmm . . . maybe I can turn my self-professed Xmas hater MIL into an Xmas lover over the weekend. Watch them p**p on the idea, but hey it could work.
TTFN - Ta-ta for now
Posted Friday, November 07, 2008 10:38 AM
It was a great night. The football game was good; we won, and our redshirt freshman running back had a school record 253 rushing yards in a game. I can only imagine what he’s going to be like once he learns how to evade some of the downfield defenders; he’s going to be amazing! My boss (who can be pretty awesome when he wants to be) called at 3:30 and said we could go whenever we needed to if we had plans, so I got home sooner than expected. What should greet my eyes as I pull up to the house but an RV and 20 people in my yard, partying away. It was great, all our friends plus their parents that we always tailgate with. We packed up and walked over to the stadium to continue the tailgate, where the beer pong table came out again, as did some games of flip cup, and some vomiting from the Wild Turkey Jello shooters one guy made. After the game (which had the most awesome display of fireworks ever) we came back and continued tailgating in the stadium lot until about 1AM. After a long walk back home, we built a bonfire in the yard, got some tents set up, and sat around the fire drinking and chilling all night. I went to bed at 3AM since I had to come to work this morning, but the rest of the kiddos stayed up a good while. When I woke up this morning, there were 8 people slumbering away in my living room (plus some in the RV, tents, and guest room). There were some traces of blood in my bathroom – according to DH one of the girls cut her lip (my guess is that’s what all the giggling shouting was about that woke me up between 4-5AM). Anyways, now I’m at work on about 2.5 hours of sleep. I’m on my second 12oz Dr. Pepper (Coke Zero is not cutting it today), and I’m still tired. I really think I should go home and nap this afternoon so I can enjoy this evening (and some of our friends are leaving 1st thing tomorrow), but there’s a meeting in the boardroom today and one of the executive vp’s is here, so I may not be able to. We’ll see how it goes. If I feel okay, I probably will stay. I think I’ll definitely take a short lunch though, so I can get out at least a little early. Even though I only had 2 beers, I really enjoyed last night. I think tonight our plan is to grill out and have another bonfire, just relax and enjoy being around each other (which to me is way more fun than going downtown to crowded smoky bars where you pay too much). Last night DH and I were telling everyone they should move back so we could do that all the time. Pics to come – I will try to load Halloween and game pics sometime this weekend, but we’ll see with these crazies around. J
Posted Wednesday, November 05, 2008 9:35 AM
Ah . . . I sit at my desk and look at our big pack of season basketball tickets and sigh dreamily. They are so pretty and maroon. I can smell basketball in the air. Season tickets for Hokie basketball. I look forward to the start of the season (which we will miss for DH's marathon - darn that race!). I almost love it more than football. I think it's because the colisseum is smaller, more intimate, less team members to remember. And of course the fact that I know most of the team makes it more real for me. ACC football, I love you, but this year has been not so great for us Hokies - when they said rebuilding they meant it. ACC basketball, here we come! NCAA tournament, you won't keep us out this year!