MrsTucker07's Blog

I'm ready for Christmas!

2009-11-17T22:49:00Z

(Almost). I made a good dent in my shopping today. I got gifts for most of the easy-to-buy-for people, now I just need to figure out what to get the hard-to-buy-for people. I'm really ready to put up the tree too. I've never really been super excited about Christmas, but this year I kind of am. I'm mostly excited that Adam is going to be off work that day. He has worked the past 2 Christmases and Christmas Eves. Let me tell you how much that sucked.

I am also in my 2ww right now, but I'm really trying not to obsess. Once I ovulated, I stopped temping every morning. I mean, what would be the point really? Since I'm not temping, I'm not looking at my chart every day, so that's helping me not obsess. In an effort not to be disappointed, I'm assuming I'm not pregnant until proven otherwise. I plan to test on Thanksgiving. Maybe I'll have a little turkey baby!

I've been slacking

2009-11-11T21:56:00Z

On my blogging, that is. There really hasn't been much to report though. I am finally feeling like a normal person again after my surgery. I still get tired kind of easily, but I'm sure a lot of that is the fact that I haven't been able to get up much this past week. I made my first outing this morning to my doctor's appointment so she could take off my bandages and stuff. She showed me all the pictures she took while she was in there and it was kind of gross, but cool at the same time. I saw my uterus (it's a lot smaller than I thought), ovaries, liver (eww), and a couple other things. Everything looked good! I told her I was ovulating today and she literally started jumping up and down. Haha! She was like "go home!" Maybe this is our month! I'm still worried about our financial situation and I still don't have a job. We are trying to get our insurance to pay more for our new roof so it won't be totally out of pocket. Wish us luck with that. Plus I don't know how much my medical bills are going to be. Well, I'm going to finish my laundry and figure out what to make for supper tonight. We don't really have much food because I haven't been able to go to the grocery store!

OMG I'm so relieved!

2009-11-06T02:19:00Z

We got Adam's SA results back today and he is FINE!!! I cannot tell you the relief that I feel. I kept asking the nurse "really?! he's fine? it's normal? really?" Haha, she probably thought I was nuts. So now we just need to give it some more time, but I'm OK with that because we know we're both fine. I'm still really hurting, but mostly from the gas they fill you up with. If that would go away I think I'd feel so much better. I'm going to go enjoy the chocolate cake my dad brought me and watch Grey's. Yay!

Request for Prayers

2009-11-05T21:38:00Z

One of my best friends from high school is 20 weeks pregnant. She and her husband went for their ultrasound last week (it's a boy!) and they found some swelling around the baby's brain. They went for further testing yesterday and found out the baby has spina bifida. While I'm sure the prognosis for this is better than it would have been many years ago, it is still a serious thing. Please pray for this couple and their baby! And if you have a healthy baby, go give them a big hug and thank God!

And the verdict is...

2009-11-05T01:35:00Z

No endometriosis! And my tubes are clear! Yay!!!! Turns out I had "adhesions" on my bowel. WTF mate?! My doctor said adhesions are normal on someone who has had a lot of surgeries, but I've never had any, so it's kind of random. But she was able to fix me up. I have two incisions, one in my belly button and one down lower. Right now I'm hurting pretty bad from the gas that they put inside you to blow you up, but that should reabsorb itself by tomorrow. I had a couple of pretty intense panic attacks while I was waiting to go into surgery, for obvious reasons. Since I have a clean bill of health, now we are just waiting for Adam's SA results, which we should hopefully get this week. My nurses and doctor weren't really aware that I didn't want my parents to know we are TTC, so they were less than subtle. So now my parents know everything, which sucks. Oh well. Well, I'm going to kill some more time on the internet while I wait to take my next pain pill. Hopefully I'll sleep well tonight!

Tomorrow is D-Day!

2009-11-03T21:02:00Z

I'm really nervous about this surgery. I know it's not a major thing, but it's the biggest procedure I've ever had done. Plus I don't know what she's going to find once she's in there. I'm obviously a control freak so it sucks to know that I'll be completely out of it while my doctor is in there taking charge of my fertility (no pun intended). Plus she is going to come out to the waiting room after to talk to my family and I really don't want her to spill the beans about TTC. Poor Adam will be the one out there dealing with the questions from my parents while I'm doped up.

Today I got my last few errands done and went to buy a couple magazines to keep me occupied. I also got The Time Traveler's Wife so I can't wait to read it. I haven't seen the movie yet. This afternoon I am cleaning my house from top to bottom so I don't have to worry about it for a few days. Yesterday I made a casserole to freeze so I'll have that later this week.

Well, I better get back to cleaning. I only have an hour left before I have to drink this nasty stuff that flushes you out completely, so I might feel like crap after that. I wish they could put me to sleep and just put that stuff in my IV. That way I wouldn't have to taste it!

I will update as soon as I am coherent enough to get online! Say a little prayer for me please!

We told my parents...sort of

2009-11-01T01:36:00Z

Today we went to tell my parents about my surgery. As I expected, they didn't have much of a reaction. They never react to anything. But I think they are still concerned. My dad is retired so I figured he would come to the hospital that day, but my mom insisted that she take off work to come too. I told her it really isn't necessary, but oh well. I knew she had a history of endometriosis, but turns out she had it pretty badly. She also had a lap surgery done back in the day, but her doctor didn't burn it off; he just gave her medicine to take care of it. Hopefully mine won't have progressed that much yet. My doctor said that it's possible that it has been developing for several years, but birth control could have just masked the symptoms. So that part is a little scary. I've been put to sleep twice before, but both times it was for oral surgery so I wasn't put under as deep as I will be Wednesday. I hope I don't puke when I wake up.

What we didn't tell my parents is that we're TTC. Adam thinks it's ridiculous that we don't just tell them, but they are strictly on a need-to-know basis. I'm sure my mom knows something is up at this point, but she's not the kind of person to pry. I just hope my doctor doesn't go out to talk to them after the surgery and spills the beans. Haha.

One thing my mom said today made me feel bad. I was telling her she didn't have to take off work and she said it was the least she could do since it was her fault. I told her it's not her fault--it's genetics' fault. Made me sad though.

I'm sure I'll update again before Wednesday. At this point I'm feeling a little more optimistic about things. This past week I wasn't able to look at anything baby related, but now I'm back to my Babies R Us website browsing. We are still waiting for Adam's SA results, but I'm trying not to think about it too much.

I'm having surgery

2009-10-30T03:00:00Z

I went to my doctor today for the pain that I've been having in my side. She did an ultrasound and it turned out completely normal. Plus my bloodwork was all normal. She said "in fact, you're TOO normal." Haha. Anyway, two things that a u/s can't see are endometriosis and a blocked tube. So next Wednesday I will be getting a laparascopy done so she can look. If there is endometriosis, she will try to burn it off. She will also put dye through my tubes and if they are blocked, she will clear them out. She said a lot of people get pregnant right away after the procedure, so I'm hoping for a good result.

So, on the agenda for this weekend: tomorrow morning I am getting my pre-op stuff done. Then we are going to Adam's mom's house. Then Saturday we will tell my parents about all of this. So far we haven't told them we are TTC or anything, but I need to let them know about the surgery and I need to find out more about my mom's infertility and endometriosis. That should be a super fun conversation...NOT.

I know one thing for sure: my husband is amazing. I don't know how I would get through any of this without him.