Posted Thursday, November 05, 2009 8:19 PM
We got Adam's SA results back today and he is FINE!!! I cannot tell you the relief that I feel. I kept asking the nurse "really?! he's fine? it's normal? really?" Haha, she probably thought I was nuts. So now we just need to give it some more time, but I'm OK with that because we know we're both fine. I'm still really hurting, but mostly from the gas they fill you up with. If that would go away I think I'd feel so much better. I'm going to go enjoy the chocolate cake my dad brought me and watch Grey's. Yay!
Posted Thursday, November 05, 2009 3:38 PM
One of my best friends from high school is 20 weeks pregnant. She and her husband went for their ultrasound last week (it's a boy!) and they found some swelling around the baby's brain. They went for further testing yesterday and found out the baby has spina bifida. While I'm sure the prognosis for this is better than it would have been many years ago, it is still a serious thing. Please pray for this couple and their baby! And if you have a healthy baby, go give them a big hug and thank God!
Posted Wednesday, November 04, 2009 7:35 PM
No endometriosis! And my tubes are clear! Yay!!!! Turns out I had "adhesions" on my bowel. WTF mate?! My doctor said adhesions are normal on someone who has had a lot of surgeries, but I've never had any, so it's kind of random. But she was able to fix me up. I have two incisions, one in my belly button and one down lower. Right now I'm hurting pretty bad from the gas that they put inside you to blow you up, but that should reabsorb itself by tomorrow. I had a couple of pretty intense panic attacks while I was waiting to go into surgery, for obvious reasons. Since I have a clean bill of health, now we are just waiting for Adam's SA results, which we should hopefully get this week. My nurses and doctor weren't really aware that I didn't want my parents to know we are TTC, so they were less than subtle. So now my parents know everything, which sucks. Oh well. Well, I'm going to kill some more time on the internet while I wait to take my next pain pill. Hopefully I'll sleep well tonight!
Posted Tuesday, November 03, 2009 3:02 PM
I'm really nervous about this surgery. I know it's not a major thing, but it's the biggest procedure I've ever had done. Plus I don't know what she's going to find once she's in there. I'm obviously a control freak so it sucks to know that I'll be completely out of it while my doctor is in there taking charge of my fertility (no pun intended). Plus she is going to come out to the waiting room after to talk to my family and I really don't want her to spill the beans about TTC. Poor Adam will be the one out there dealing with the questions from my parents while I'm doped up.
Today I got my last few errands done and went to buy a couple magazines to keep me occupied. I also got The Time Traveler's Wife so I can't wait to read it. I haven't seen the movie yet. This afternoon I am cleaning my house from top to bottom so I don't have to worry about it for a few days. Yesterday I made a casserole to freeze so I'll have that later this week.
Well, I better get back to cleaning. I only have an hour left before I have to drink this nasty stuff that flushes you out completely, so I might feel like crap after that. I wish they could put me to sleep and just put that stuff in my IV. That way I wouldn't have to taste it!
I will update as soon as I am coherent enough to get online! Say a little prayer for me please!
Posted Saturday, October 31, 2009 8:36 PM
Today we went to tell my parents about my surgery. As I expected, they didn't have much of a reaction. They never react to anything. But I think they are still concerned. My dad is retired so I figured he would come to the hospital that day, but my mom insisted that she take off work to come too. I told her it really isn't necessary, but oh well. I knew she had a history of endometriosis, but turns out she had it pretty badly. She also had a lap surgery done back in the day, but her doctor didn't burn it off; he just gave her medicine to take care of it. Hopefully mine won't have progressed that much yet. My doctor said that it's possible that it has been developing for several years, but birth control could have just masked the symptoms. So that part is a little scary. I've been put to sleep twice before, but both times it was for oral surgery so I wasn't put under as deep as I will be Wednesday. I hope I don't puke when I wake up.
What we didn't tell my parents is that we're TTC. Adam thinks it's ridiculous that we don't just tell them, but they are strictly on a need-to-know basis. I'm sure my mom knows something is up at this point, but she's not the kind of person to pry. I just hope my doctor doesn't go out to talk to them after the surgery and spills the beans. Haha.
One thing my mom said today made me feel bad. I was telling her she didn't have to take off work and she said it was the least she could do since it was her fault. I told her it's not her fault--it's genetics' fault. Made me sad though.
I'm sure I'll update again before Wednesday. At this point I'm feeling a little more optimistic about things. This past week I wasn't able to look at anything baby related, but now I'm back to my Babies R Us website browsing. We are still waiting for Adam's SA results, but I'm trying not to think about it too much.
Posted Thursday, October 29, 2009 10:00 PM
I went to my doctor today for the pain that I've been having in my side. She did an ultrasound and it turned out completely normal. Plus my bloodwork was all normal. She said "in fact, you're TOO normal." Haha. Anyway, two things that a u/s can't see are endometriosis and a blocked tube. So next Wednesday I will be getting a laparascopy done so she can look. If there is endometriosis, she will try to burn it off. She will also put dye through my tubes and if they are blocked, she will clear them out. She said a lot of people get pregnant right away after the procedure, so I'm hoping for a good result.
So, on the agenda for this weekend: tomorrow morning I am getting my pre-op stuff done. Then we are going to Adam's mom's house. Then Saturday we will tell my parents about all of this. So far we haven't told them we are TTC or anything, but I need to let them know about the surgery and I need to find out more about my mom's infertility and endometriosis. That should be a super fun conversation...NOT.
I know one thing for sure: my husband is amazing. I don't know how I would get through any of this without him.
Posted Wednesday, October 28, 2009 3:02 PM
Today was kind of a bust. I didn't have a lot that I needed to get done, but even that stuff isn't going to happen. I called all the pharmacies around here and they are all out of flu shots. Ugh! I called my general practitioner's office to see if they had any but they are out of the office today so I have to call back tomorrow. I'm sure I'll be fine if I don't get one. I wash my hands all the time and since I'm not around little kids anymore I'm not as exposed to germs.
Speaking of being around kids, my friend J that I used to work with when I did therapy is now working at a center. The two other girls that work with her and do her same job are both about to have a baby and don't want to come back full time. So they are trying to convince the director to hire somebody else part time (ME!). I am crossing all my fingers and toes that it works out.
Tomorrow is our big testing day (Adam's test and my ultrasound). I'm glad I went ahead and called the doctor yesterday because I'm in more pain today. Hopefully I'll get some definitive answers tomorrow. If not, at least maybe I'll get another chance to talk to my doctor while I'm there.
Well, I'm going to finish the laundry I'm doing...something productive!
Posted Tuesday, October 27, 2009 2:26 PM
I talked to my broker today and told her I was quitting. I'm relieved. Now I just really really need to get that other job!
I'm still having pain so I have an ultrasound on Thursday (same day as Adam's SA). I was hoping I could get in tomorrow but oh well. The pain is not unbearable, I just want to know what's causing it. If the ultrasound doesn't show anything and I keep having pain, I'll have to get a laparospocy done. She said they would go in through my belly button with a camera. We can't afford that and I can't be laid up in bed for a week with a new job. So I don't know what we're going to do.
My stress level is so ridiculous right now, I can feel the tension in my neck and shoulders. I need a good back rub! Or a heating pad....