Posted Thursday, November 19, 2009 9:32 PM
My goal 4 weeks ago was to make it to 28 weeks. And if all goes well tomorrow and I make it Sat, I will have hit that goal. The bedrest seems to be working. My doctor says everything is the same which is good since at least my cervix has not shortened anymore. My next goal will be 32 weeks. Lets keep the fingers crossed!!
Bedrest is going. Work is keeing me really busy lately so it makes the day go by quick. I am glad that tomorrow is Friday. Blueberry is moving a lot more but hasn't been the painful kicks I keep reading about. I am sure they will come soon enough. I have my first baby shower on Sunday thrown by my family. I am really looking forward to it. Our nursery is going, just painted and that is about it. We need to get moving on that. So far my third trimester feels like my second one but I am sure that will also change as I get further along. I bought this fetal monitor thing that Graco makes. It is a little machine with earphones that you can hear the baby heart beat. Well I have been trying for the past 5 weeks. I hear NOTHING. Such a waste of money.
I am getting a little more anxious everyday but at the same time more and more scared. It is hitting us a little more each day that we are going to have a baby, our own son. He will depend on us for the rest of his life. Even when he is 30 with his own kids, he will still want his parents to help him. It is jus tvery surreal. I think about myself just 4 years ago, immature selfish. Heck that was me 1 year ago and now I will have someone who will depend on me for everything. Exciting times!!
Posted Friday, November 06, 2009 10:43 PM
So I just showed my better half my blog posts and everyone's comments. He was surprised that I was blogging to begin with and that people were responding. I am a pretty private person that doesn't share too much to people I don't know. I told him that I find this very therapeutic because no one in my life can relate to this. None of my friends except for 1 have been pregnant or even close to considering having kids. He nodded and continued to watch tv. But honestly I never considered blogging before but I really think it is a great way to connect with others who are in your same shoes or to those that can relate. Anyway just wanted to share this.
Posted Tuesday, November 03, 2009 6:01 PM
Another week has gone by. The bedrest is starting to get to me. I feel so useless. I went to the doctor today and he said that everything is going well and that my cervix is the same so the bedrest is working. I did ask him what I can do and he gave me permission to go shop for the baby once but I have to be on a wheel chair. That got me really excited. So I have to choose the date wisely. Since I can only go once, maybe twice.
Back to the bedrest getting to me. I had a mini breakdown yesterday. I started to cry and my hubby was trying to console me but it just wasn't working. I do feel better today though since I did get to go out. Ill probably be ok for a few days. I can't wait until my mom gets back and she starts to take care of me. The nursery got painted this weekend and it looks awesome. Now I will start to decorate well I will starting telling people how to decorate. I think that will be one of the hardest things of this time. The fact that I can't decorate my baby's room. I know that this is the sacrifice that will give me a healthy baby (I have heard this 100x) but it is still hard physically and mentally. I am hoping that it will get better. The one things I am very happy about is that I am at home and not at the hospital.
We are getting more and more excited at our baby's coming. I want to know what he looks like, his personality, everything. It is so exciting!!
Posted Sunday, October 25, 2009 12:16 PM
I had to go back to the hospital yesterday because I was having a more heavier than normal discharge. Just to keep on the safe side the doctor had me checked out. Well everything seemed ok. They did the FFN test again which came back negative. It looked like my cervix is still the same. Thier ultrasound machine was liitle old so they couldn't get a great picture. My doctor doesn't think Blueberry will stay in past 34 weeks so she decided to give me the Betamethasone shot to speed up the baby's lung development. Oh my gosh was the shot painful. It hurt for hours later. It was awful. I have to go back tonight and get it administered again. I am not looking forward to it but I gotta do whatever it takes. I can't wait to see the maternal fetal specialist on Wednesday so that he can tell me if there has been a change or not. Until than I am on bedrest however I can walk around some but not a lot. No driving and I can not go back to work for the duration of my pregnancy. Luckily my job is allowing me to work from home. It is funny to say but thank God they are letting me. I would have gone bananas if I had nothing to do. I am praying all goes well and Blueberry stays put for longer than expected.
PS- Thank you to all who have left the wonderful comments. They are great!
Posted Thursday, October 22, 2009 7:21 PM
I have been diagnosed with a soft cervix or incompetent cervix. I was in the hospital today under observation. My blueberry wants to come out!! My doctor is very happy that we caught it early. And to think that I was going to "listen" to the internet and not go to the doctor. I was having lower abdominal pain and the internet kept saying it was just muscle stretching or ligament stretch. However a coworker said call you doctor. They made me come in and they than sent me to a specialist. Than today the pain continued and I was told to go to labor and delivery to be observed. Got some medicines to control my contractions. I will be checked again next week and it will be decided whether I can go back to work or if I have to be on bed rest. I am a little scared. I dont want anything to happen to my blueberry. All I know is this baby has to stay put for another 10 weeks at least.
Posted Friday, October 16, 2009 7:24 PM
We are heading into the 1/2 way mark in my 5th month of pregnancy and it feels great!! All I can complain about is the heartburn. Blueberry is moving around and kicking all the time. So much for him not kicking. He heard me and is now making sure I don't worry anymore. We have yet not picked a name. We can't seem to like the same names. he hates the names I pick, I hate the names he picks. I know that this is normal but can we pick a name out already?
My tummy is getting bigger by the minute or at least it seems like it is. The hubby and I are in full swing in looking into how to furnish the nursery. We have so many ideas and even though it seems like we have plenty of time, it will come and go very fast. I am very excited about it. :D
I am get more and more excited as the days go by. I almost can't wait to see him but I also want to relish every second of it.
Posted Wednesday, September 30, 2009 4:12 PM
So we found out today that we are having a baby boy. We are very excited. We saw him move and suck his thumb on the screen. It was unbeliveable seeing how his spine and the 4 chambers in his heart. The past week I was looking on google at pictures of ultrasounds of baby boys and I was telling myself "is the sonogram zoomed in 1000x? It looks so big!!!" So today when I was looking at my baby's pictures I couldnt stop giggling and of course my husband is very proud. Now that I know its a boy, I have another excuse to shop :)
Posted Wednesday, September 23, 2009 9:51 AM
I am 99% sure that what I felt last night while laying in bed watching tv was the baby kick. It was so exciting. It happened 3-4 times in a few minute span all on one side of my tummy!! 
I can't wait to feel more of it.