learning to trust
Posted
Wednesday, October 17, 2007 6:00 PM
I am getting married and sometimes I feel like the biggest obsticale to overcome is not the distance, or time or immigration paperwork (or wedding planning for that matter lol). It's putting my total and complete trust in my man. It's also putting the trust in myself. Trusting I will keep my promises to him. Trusting in myself enough to know I am worthy of this amazing person's love. Trusting that I will always put us first and always be faithful to him and to us together. I think sometimes we forget how much the word trust means.
I think the hardest thing to learn is to completely trust someone else. I don't think that I have ever alllowed myself to trust in someone else completely, and realizing that was a huge wake up call for me. It's so easy to say you trust someone or fool yourself into believeing that you trust someone, but until you are ready to get married you don't really know what trust means. It's not just trusting that person won't cheat on you. It's also trusting that person won't let you down, they will listen to you, they will be your partner now and always. it's trusting they will laugh with you when times are good, cry with you when times are hard, and carry you when you can't carry yourself. It's trusting all of their promises sent over thousands of miles away are true. I trust because I have learned that I can. I trust because I have never had to ask him to prove himself to me, his words and actions have done that countless times.