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a list of things to get for my emergency kit

rebellemichelle — Wed, 24 Oct 2007 17:13:00 GMT

Essentials

Sewing Kit, including safety pins and small scissors
Clear nail polish (helpful for stocking runs)
Nail file
Nail polish in the bride's shade
Makeup (you'll probably have this there anyway!)
Straws (for drinking without messing up lipstick
Extra stockings
Hairspray
Brush and comb
Bobbypins and hair elastics
Hairdryer
Static-cling spray
Tissues
Handkerchiefs
Lint brush
Earring backs
Iron
Baby powder (also useful for getting out last-minute spills on a white dress)
Eye-drops (look for redness reducing)
contact lens soloution
Acid relief
Smelling salts
Antacid
Mints
Tampons and pads
Headache medicine (bring two different kinds in case one of the bridal party is allergic)
Band-Aids

If you're getting dressed in a place that won't have a bathroom near, you'll also want to bring a mirror, bottle of water, and moist towelettes.

Good extras: charged cell phone, camera for taking getting dressed candids, list of vendors phone numbers, wristwatch. and I am going to add some power bars (cliff bars are my fav) and some bottled water

Thought you guys want to read!

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rebellemichelle — Tue, 23 Oct 2007 15:29:00 GMT

I need to try on my dress again cause right now I am hating it. I saw someone else on a different site with the exact dress I want and I am really sad. I feel like since i already bought this other dress I have to just suck it up and wear it.

I don't know why it's such a big deal but I really have this thing with showing my chest piece to my relatives...I am such a weirdo.

blog written yesterday

rebellemichelle — Fri, 19 Oct 2007 14:01:00 GMT

Everything is fine now. My Mom went back to work today and we are hoping this kind of thing doesn't happen again. We are going to be determining a plan in case something like this does happen. I know there isn't much you can do when someone has a seizure but at least we can note what happened and give the doctors as much information as possible when we take her to the hospital.

11:18 a.m.

well I haven't been able to go back to sleep but that needs to happen soon. Everything is calm here right now, my Mom is sleeping and everything is fine. Thank you to everyone for your kind words and sharing your experiences. It means a lot to always have such wonderful support.

8:57 a.m.

well my Mom just got home and is looking alot better. They have upped her medication and hopefully that will help her not have another seizure. I slept through my alarm and am completely exhuasted I am going to try and go in for the afternoon, but I don't know. I think I need a mental health day.
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I swear people are going think I am making this up. I wish I was making it up. I just got home from the hospital. As some of you may know about a year and a half ago my Mom had a stroke and was very sick. She recovered extremely well and everyone was amazed by her progress. The only small after affect was sometimes she would get tremors in her left hand (the side that was affected by the stroke). She is on medication for it and it didn't seem like anything serious. Tonight she had a full seizure and I was woken up by my Dad yelling that she was seizing and he had just called an ambulence. When I ran upstairs she was completely stiff and shaking basically in a full blown seizure. Thank god I just finished my first aid training and knew what to do and the ambulence arrived extremely fast. She had come out of it when the ambulence got there but was really frightened and upset about what had happened.

I just got home from the hospital and basically they told us her medication levels are not high enough and they will be adjusting that. They will be keeping her until sometime this morning to make sure that all of her levels stablize and to give the neuro surgeon to look at her. She is fine now, just really tired.

I just thank the heavens that we were here when this happened and the ambulence came as quickly as it did. I hated seeing my Mom like that. Honestly seeing her seizing like that was a thousand times worse then when she had her stroke because we didn't know right away it was a stroke and obviously didn't have quite the same symptoms. My Dad is so protective over my Mom and has a very difficult time dealing with this kind of thing and I hate seeing him so upset.

I am sure everything will be fine now that they are adjusting her medciation...but just...I need to get off this ride for a few moments..

learning to trust

rebellemichelle — Wed, 17 Oct 2007 17:00:00 GMT

I am getting married and sometimes I feel like the biggest obsticale to overcome is not the distance, or time or immigration paperwork (or wedding planning for that matter lol). It's putting my total and complete trust in my man. It's also putting the trust in myself. Trusting I will keep my promises to him. Trusting in myself enough to know I am worthy of this amazing person's love. Trusting that I will always put us first and always be faithful to him and to us together. I think sometimes we forget how much the word trust means.

I think the hardest thing to learn is to completely trust someone else. I don't think that I have ever alllowed myself to trust in someone else completely, and realizing that was a huge wake up call for me. It's so easy to say you trust someone or fool yourself into believeing that you trust someone, but until you are ready to get married you don't really know what trust means. It's not just trusting that person won't cheat on you. It's also trusting that person won't let you down, they will listen to you, they will be your partner now and always. it's trusting they will laugh with you when times are good, cry with you when times are hard, and carry you when you can't carry yourself. It's trusting all of their promises sent over thousands of miles away are true. I trust because I have learned that I can. I trust because I have never had to ask him to prove himself to me, his words and actions have done that countless times.

feeling a lot less stressed out.

rebellemichelle — Tue, 09 Oct 2007 20:38:00 GMT

well after a mini nervous breakdown this morning I think I have managed to put things back in perspective.

I am not reccomending that anyone try and plan a wedding from two different countries to be held in a city that you don't live in. Ha Ha it's hell. Again my wedding planner has been my saving grace. I can't imagine what she is going to have to deal with on our wedding day.

As some of you that have been reading my sporadic updates may know I am a Canadian marrying an American and things couldn't be any more confusing. We haven't started filing our immigration paperwork yet and I was really getting freaked out about it. But I have decided that we will have the wedding if it's done or not, approved or not and then deal with the aftermath, well after. I have formed a few solutions in my mind if we are not able to complete the legal side of the wedding.

but that wasn't before I almost went into melt down mode and started blaming everything on my poor FI. I don't know why I feel this need to be so in control of things that I can't control. Things will happen the way they are supposed to and that's all there is to it. We still have time to figure out alternate plans and as I always like to say to everyone, nothing is the end of the world.

I am really proud of myself that I managed to pull my shit together so to speak and remember that it's all about our love for each other. It's not about immigration (well at some point it will be but we can work around certain things you know?), it's not about a wedding dress, it's not about being in control of evverything. It's about us being together. He wants it, and I want it. but the more frantic and desperate I get about things, the harder I am to deal with and the more toll it takes on everyone around me, including my friends and family. and honestly giving myself an ulcer over the immigration paperwork isnt going to make it any different then what it is...

okie

rebellemichelle — Sat, 06 Oct 2007 02:31:00 GMT

So I think I hate my dress. I mean I love the dress and I love the idea of the dress. but the more I think about it the more I wonder if it's really me. I would love to have a red dress or a black dress...I am having a rock and roll wedding, and I love the idea of doing absolutly nothing conventional! I already have lots of tattoos that are going to be very visable and I don't even know if I am comfortable with that. I don't know. maybe that's what I am so nervous about. I loved the dress when I put it on. Maybe I just have to try it on again.

Ugh this wedding thing is so confusing!

wow my last post sucked

rebellemichelle — Fri, 05 Oct 2007 02:48:00 GMT

Okie, i am in a much better frame of mind right now. I am still getting a bit of static from some people about how far away the wedding is and how much it's going to cost to get down there, but honestly if they can't afford they don't have to come. I would love every person that I know to be there but unfortunatly I can't afford to invite every single person that I know and they can't afford to come.

Anyway I have almost all the major things done except the caterer and cake. I have the venue (ceremony and reception), florist, hair and make up, officiant, photographer, dj. I have my dress (still needs alterations) but I still need to pick our bridesmaid dresses.

I am working on getting some hotel rooms blocked off, I originally thought it would be about 20 rooms and it's actually closer to 40 rooms. I have called a couple of places but I can't seem to get them to call me back. It's more then a little annoying.

The caterer is a friend of my FI and I haven't actually had a chance to speak to her but I have a lot of questions. I really don't know if she has the equipment to caterer something like this or if she realizes our guest list is at about 150 people. I was thinking of doing a sit down dinner, and then I thought maybe we would do the wedding more in the evening and have heavy appitizers and maybe a candy buffet and cake. I would like to get this detail sorted out fairly soon because if we don't then if we have to book someone else we need to get that done kind of soon. I am also under the impression that she is able to do the cake as well, but I am not sure so if not that's another thing I will have to get taken care of asap.

We have a great idea for the theme and decorations. I know some people think theme weddings are stupid but I love the idea and I have hosted many a party with a theme. We are going to go with sort of a rock and roll wedding theme, and have some records as decorations, and I was thinking of trying to make a juke box style envelope holder. That might be a little over the top though. I am going to see if I can come up with some other cool ideas.

I am doing the invtiations and I am hopefully going to try and diy most of the decorations. I am not 100% sure about that though. I also thought we could do some cool old gig posters or band posters and hang them up around the venue. apparently the venue is really pretty and doesn't need a lot of decoration, but I really want it to have the cool, funky rock and roll feel.

I am going to be using chocolate brown, bright pink, and a spring green. I think the colours are going to go really well together. I was thinking of doing black and pink but I think it's kind of cliche for a rock and roll wedding, and I am going to be wearing an ivory dress which I think will lend itself better to brown. I am kind of insane about matching so that part is really important to me. I can see myself throwing a fit before the wedding if everything isnt' matching the way I think it should.

God sometimes it's hard to believe I am getting married. It doesn't even seem real and there is so much stuff to do. But I am actually feeling fairly calm about the planning side of things. Now I just have to worry about the immigration side of things.

ugh

rebellemichelle — Mon, 20 Aug 2007 02:53:00 GMT

I am so depressed. I have never had to do anything on this scale before and trying to work around everyone has totally screwed everything up. It all started when we had to change the date because mybest friend/MOH said she wouldn't be able to come on the date we picked. It started a whole chain of events that has basically made trying to plan this wedding a nightmare and our simple 5000 dollar wedding is getting more expensive by the day. I don't even want to talk about it anymore but I really want to cry. He's mad at me, I am mad at my friend and myself and it seems like all I am doing is fighting with everyone.