Anything will make me cry these days

Posted Friday, February 20, 2009 9:52 AM

Did anyone see Grey's Anatomy last night? I don't watch the show regularly but I watched it last week and I caught the last half hour of yesterday's show AND boy was I a mess. I was bawling. Seeing the premature baby being pulled out from his dead mother made me burst out with tears then the way the husband reacted to his wife's death made me go into the ugly cry. I know it's just a show but it was SO SO sad. It's the happiest time in most couples lives but something could go horribly wrong and turn out to be the worst day of someone's life.  

Then this morning, I was reading the paper as I was waiting for the train. It was filled with articles about Obama's visit yesterday. I was reading one that explained that he went into the market and had a beaver tail. The girl that served him was a huge fan and she was decribing how down to earth he was and THIS, THIS made me tear up. Why? I have no idea. I understand why I started crying yesterday during Grey's Anatomy but why was I crying about Obama eating a beavertail?  

I take the bus before I catch the train in the morning. Well this morning, I was sitting on the bus and this lady gets on and as we drive by her house, she starts waving out the window to her son and his grandmother standing on the porch who are also waving to bye to her. It was so sweet. Surprisingly I didn't cry, I just thought to myself, one day I'll have a little one waving bye to me. I just can't wait for those moments. But yet it still seems so surreal that this happening. I guess it's because I still haven't heard the heartbeat or felt the baby move yet. I know it's way too early to feel the baby yet but I still try. When I'm at home relaxing, I always have a hand on my belly in case I feel something. But nothing yet (well just gas hehe). I can definately see that something is in there. I've been walking around work with my arms crossed over my belly so no one will notice. lol. I plan on telling everyone Monday after I have my appointment and I hear the heartbeat. I just really really NEED to hear that heartbeat. Usually I can wait for Mondays to come around but this Monday really can't come soon enough. I'm unbeleivably excited. It will just make it so real to me. Also I will be able to stop worrying about whether or not our baby is ok in there, it will just put my mind at ease. 

So hopefully this weekend goes by fast for me! The week sure did - I can't beleive it's Friday already. Happy Friday! :)