Posted Thursday, May 15, 2008 2:49 PM
I am feeling awful today. I have the worst cramps ever, and Ibuprofen doesn't seem to be touching the pain. Work is a little slow, so that just exacerbates the pain because I have nothing to distract me. I tried to drink some tea with Dong Quai (supposed to help with cramps), and that helped some. On the plus side, no migraine.
Our anniversary turned out nice, and quiet. Aaron has been gone so much lately, that even just cuddling on the couch was a welcome change. Watched Top Chef together last night. Funny, because neither of us really gets into reality shows, but my mom turned me on to this show. Aaron just started watching with me a couple weeks ago, and he is hooked. Personal fave is Richard. I think he is one of the most consistent chefs on the show. And I want half of his food!
I can't wait to go home tonight. Aaron will be gone again. I have a new book (Emily Giffin's latest) I love chick lit. I might read a little, and maybe scrapbook a little. I got some good deals at Target on supplies yesterday. Either way, I will be relaxing on the couch willing the pain away. This has been the one downside to quitting BC.
Couple more hours...counting down the minutes.
Posted Wednesday, May 14, 2008 8:54 AM
Well, it's our 3 year anniversary today. And to commemorate the day, the weather has decided to mimic our wedding day and rain all day long. It sure doesn't seem like it's been that long, yet we have been through a lot.
We have been through job loss, family problems, deaths, home construction, and moving twice. However, through all of that life stuff, we have remained so committed to each other. I have watched my husband grow so much from our experiences. I find that a lot of women want to "change" their husbands after marriage, but I find that appreciating them for who they are and enjoying your differences makes things much easier.
The last year has been especially great. We moved into the house that we built together. To have something that is ours that we can share together has been so amazing. We work on all the little projects together, and are really making our house a home.
Aaron and I started dating our last year of college, and had a few classes together. I was applying for jobs all over the country. Didn't have any plans of sticking around. I got a job offer from the Department of Defense for an auditing position in Alexandria, VA. I weighed my options heavily. Besides it being hard to imagine the salary actually covering the cost of living, I couldn't help but factor Aaron into my decision. In the end, I didn't go, and Aaron and I went on to get married, etc. He was obviously not the sole reason for staying. I got a job local shortly after that that paid the same salary as the DOD job, and the cost of living in west Michigan is way cheaper than DC. I had some friends and family that were worried I would regret not going to DC. But looking back over the last few years, I realize I would have regretted going, because I would have missed all the wonderful moments I have with Aaron.
I really do look forward to the years to come, with children and all. I know that Aaron will be an awesome dad, but I am glad that we have waited for it, because it has given me time to appreciate us, and what we have.
I gave him his gift this morning. He loved the watch. I wanted him to be able to wear it today, but it needs to have links taken out. We are going to dinner tonight, but nothing fancy...it would be out of character for us to make a big deal of it. Just going to enjoy our night.
Posted Friday, May 09, 2008 10:03 AM
Well, Aaron has been working every night for the past week, so I have been alone. Normally I wouldn't mind. It allows me to get some stuff done like cleaning, and yardwork, and reading. But, the house is spotless, there isn't anymore yardwork to do until we plant annuals, and I can't seem to get into a new book yet. I have been trying to keep busy, but feeling a little lonely. I went out shopping with a friend on Wednesday night. That was pretty fun, and I always love having girl time.
I think part of the reason I feel lonely, is because I am in a depressive state. We are trying to make ends meet right now. Things are looking up, but until then, I feel trapped. Sometimes, I hate being an accountant. It makes me so money sensitive. I deal with money and numbers all day, so its hard to forget about it when I come home. For all intents and purposes, we are fine financially, and will continue to be. I just hate the tough months.
Ever since Aaron's parents visited, I have been so worried about how he is doing. He seems more agitated, and quick to get upset. I am used to this after visits with them, but its worse this time. I hate not being able to cheer him up. It just gets me down. I know he will be better soon, just takes time.
We are going to my mom's for mothers day this year. I am supposed to bring some food this year. Usually she cooks everything, but we wanted to split it up this year. She really shouldn't have to cook everything on her day. Am I supposed to get my SIL a mother day card? Not sure of the protocol here?
So, our anniversary is next week. Aaron asked if we were doing gifts this year. I told him we couldn't afford to. (granted...I already purchased the watch :) He seemed disappointed. So I told him, he could you his own discretion regarding if he wanted to buy me a gift. We'll see. I think I played it off well that I wasn't getting anything because money was tight :)
I just need to cheer up a little. Things aren't really that bad, just amplified by my sad mood.
Posted Wednesday, May 07, 2008 10:01 AM
Grocery shopping - This by far has to be my least favorite thing to do. We have always done this together, even when we were dating and buying our own food. I hate doing it alone. The cart gets heavy, so its hard to push around all the corners. People stand in the aisle so you can't get though. Not to mention those "amigo" things that are motorized. They are a nuisance when shopping. I went last night by myself since Aaron is working the side job. It took me forever, and it wasn't even that busy. However, I spent a lot less than when Aaron comes along since he likes to add things to the cart when I am not looking. I got hit on by some 40 year old guy. I will admit, I look really young, some say like 18. So tell me, what is a 40 year old guy hitting on a seemingly 18 year old? Gross.
One thing that I love to do is make dinner for myself. Aaron and I do alot of that together. But he has a tendency to try to take over sometimes. It gets a little frustrating. Last night, I got to make my own dinner, on my own time schedule. It was great. No rush. And I got to eat my dinner in front of the tv with a nice large glass of wine. It was blissful, especially after the horrendous shopping experience.
Posted Tuesday, May 06, 2008 10:57 AM
We have been living in our home for about a year now. All the walls are still bare. I haven't put up any pictures or anything. We kind of changed all the colors from our apartment days. So now, none of my previous decor matches. I need some inspiration to start decorating. I try to keep an eye out for bargains, and I have found a few things. I found curtains for all three windows in the bedroom for $25. Still need to find rods though, which will be much more than the curtains themselves. We have several rooms with nothing in them. I don't want to fill them up with stuff, and right now, that means I don't have to clean them. :) I am happy that we have so much space and it will give us a lot of room to grow into, but it seems so bare sometimes.
As much as I love everything Crate & Barrel, I can't afford to decorate my whole house with it. Any ideas for economical decorating?
Posted Monday, May 05, 2008 9:51 AM
So, I posted a while back about getting an anniversary present for DH. I tossed around the idea of a watch. Well, I went shoppping this weekend just to browse, but found the perfect watch for a bargain no less. I had a budget in mind. The watch I picked out was in my budget. But, when I was talking with the sales associate, she said they were running a Friends and Family specail. 45% off. I was floored. I was going to save so much money. I really thought about getting a more expensive watch that would fit with my original budget. However, I really liked the one I picked out. So, maybe I will find something else small to suplement to budget balance. I am so excited! I think Aaron will be surprised which is the best!
This weekend was kind of a bore. Some would say its relaxing but I can only do so much "relaxing" I am more of a gotta be on the go person. Aaron was working a side job on Saturday (yay for extra income) so I was left alone all day. Usually that would be fine. I would clean, go shopping, yardwork. Well...this weekend...I did clean...no money for shopping...and rain all day prevented yardwork. So I sat around, read a book, watched sappy movies. Boring day.
My close friend and I have been discussing the possibily of children. It seems we are on the same track timewise. It would be exciting if we could go through all that together. None of my friends have kids yet, and I know that when one of us does, it will sort of change the dynamic of the group. So it would be nice if we kind of progressed together :) Keeping my fingers crossed for no oops.
Posted Friday, May 02, 2008 9:58 AM
Okay, I try not to nag. I really do, but my husband cannot remember anything. Its the most frustrating thing ever. Not only does he not remember things, he loses things too.
Just last week, he lost the pin that hooks the trailer to the lawn tractor. The only time you take it out is to disconnect the tractor. So, tell me how you lose that?
Our vet sent out a little card a couple weeks ago. Aaron has always taken responsibility for all the vet visits. He has a flexible schedule at work, while mine is the most structrued ever. So he always takes care of things like that since he can leave work at varying times. He still hasn't set up an appointment. Now, I could call and make one for him, but then he would be mad and say "I was going to do it" So...do I remind him again (be a nag) or sit around and hope that Lucy gets her distemper and rabies shots?
Here is a bad one. He told me his dad's birthday was on February 5. So I rush out Feb 3 and get a card to mail. I felt so bad that it was going to be late. Then, Aaron didn't even call on his dad's birthday. That is one thing I am not going to remind him to do. His family....his deal to call them. I just send the cards. Well, then I am at work on Feb 25, and I get a outlook popup that says Lee's Birthday. So, I call Aaron and ask "when is your dad's bday again" He said he wasn't sure...either 2/5 or 2/25. So, me being resourceful, I try to find it online, and I did. It is 2/25. At least Aaron could call him on that day. They were so confused as to why the card came early.
The thing is, even after knowing him for so long, I am still so baffled when he forgets things. Problem is, I feel like I am constantly reminding him to do things, which makes me feel like a nag. But, if I don't remind him, somethings would just never get done.
Sorry, just needed to vent a little!
Posted Wednesday, April 30, 2008 4:16 PM
So, I am one of the unfortunate ones that get migraines. I get the bad ones, complete with nausea and vomitting. I basically cannot do anything but sleep to feel better. They started when I was about 20, and haven't really stopped....or have they. I have been prescribed a few things, Imitrex, Axert, Zomig. They didn't really work. Funny because each of the labels describes the possible side effects. Of course I get the one side effect that only happens in about 1% of people taking it....jaw pain/numbness.
Well, over the last year I kept a diary of foods eaten, and when I got migraines. My doctor and I narrowed it down to menstrual migraines since the vast majority of them happened while on the placebo week of my pill. She prescribed me some estrogen pills (Premarin) to take while I was on my placebo week. She thought perhaps the drop in estrogen from the BCP could be triggering my headaches. So, I tried that for 3 months. They didn't help at all, in fact I thought the migraines were worse. She then suggested the scariest thing ever, stop taking BCPs. At the time, I thought she was crazy. And getting Aaron to use condoms seemed like a heavy task.
So, we talked it over for a few months. I finally took the plunge a couple months ago. I read TCOYF, and started charting. I am finished my second cycle, and so far, things are great (including an increase in sex-drive!). I am sure the pre pill symtoms of cramping, and acne will come back a little as time goes by. But....no migraine in two months. It's a record. In fact, I haven't even really had any headaches to speak of. Most people turn to drugs, but who knew that letting your body function naturally could be the best cure?