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BFN - After GREAT BFP Dream!

Posted Friday, October 12, 2007 2:35 PM

So I caved and tested this morning at 10 DPO, even though I knew it was too early, and I wasn't going to test until AF was late.  So much for that, but I had a good reason! :)  I woke up at 5:15, looked at the clock, and then rolled over and went back to sleep.  I had a dream where I got up, went to the bathroom, took an HPT, and it immediately came back positive!!  I ran into DH, woke him up, and told him.  We started jumping up and down.  It was so vivid, and real, down to the fact I knew it was 10 DPO, I knew DH's exact reaction, and we talked about which dr. to call that day!  It was so real and I was so happy.  I finally woke up and it was like a train hit me, because I realized it was a dream.  I was pretty bummed out, and laid in bed thinking of what I should do.  I knew in my heart I would get a BFN, but couldn't resist, due to the dream.  Sure enough, after POAS, I got my BFN.  I wasn't as bummed as I thought I would be, but every BFN is hard.  I know it is still early, but it still doesn't give me any confidence about this month.

I am leaving tonight for my parent's house in Kansas to watch my younger brother's final home football game.  I am sad about it, because I can't believe my brother is a senior in high school, and now I'll have nothing to look forward to on Friday nights in the fall.  My mom and I are going shopping Saturday, so that will be fun, and then I'm coming back home on Sunday.  I know I'll have a great weekend, and hopefully one that takes my mind off of everything that's going on!