Monday Night Meltdown
Posted
Wednesday, January 30, 2008 2:27 AM
Have you ever just lost it for no apparent reason? I admit to being rather...sensitive. A soft heart. A cryer. I get emotional and it happens at really odd times. Often when I'm not even expecting it.
Last night, about 11:00 (long past my bedtime, btw) I was just laying there and started to get teary. I was slightly frustrated with work. My co-worker and I are going to Chicago on Friday for a concert (Matchbox Twenty! WOOO!) And it's like this huge deal trying to get out of the office. We need to head out 2 hours early on a Friday afternoon. 2 hours. What the crap is the big deal? I have only 5 days vacation for the entire year. 40 hours. You don't realize how little that is until that's all you have. And I have to use some...never mind the multitude of 15 to 18 hour days I put in here in January. I work my ass off...is it too much to catch one little break and take two hours off on a Friday? Sheesh! They are such sticklers about that kind of stuff and frankly I find it rather ridiculous.
Secondly, I still get terribly homesick sometimes. We moved three years ago and still miss being close to my family. Stupid, I know. What am I, 7 years old here? We don't want to live in Iowa anymore and we are literally counting down the days until we can return to Illinois. I've come accept that I will never move "back home." DH would never live in a major metro area like Chicago, it's just not his scene and I'm fine with that...but we've come up with a perfect compromise and we just can't wait until we get there. I miss my Mom! She's my best friend and when we move she'll be less than two hours away.
So needless to say...I was just having a tough time last night. Tired of work, tired of Iowa, tired of snow and cold and winter and wind. Then I felt bad because DH felt bad. He's always saying the only reason we are here is because of him and his career and he's always questioning if it is worth it.
The answer to that question is simple. It's absolutely worth it.
Posted by
TheMilkmansWife
Filed under: work, family