Baby steps to the car... baby steps to the mts...
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Thursday, August 14, 2008 9:49 AM
(Like in "What about Bob")....
Mom and I are going for a Berthoud practice run this weekend... Then I will know what to expect when we go...
Long range forcast for the weekend we are due to spend with our friends looks dry and sunny, so that will make it easier too...
I haven't had a conversation with Todd yet about who is driving - but the way I see it any arguement for me to drive is just as valid as any for him to drive... I am driving, and if he doesn't want to ride with me he can go with some of our friends in a different car....
And me putting my foot down about it is no more outragous than it would be for him to do the same...
I have to take care of myself, set myself up for success... I would love it if he could be supportive and understanding about it - but at the least he WILL tolerate it... there is no room for discussion...
I wish I was normal, wish I could do things like other people do, 100% of the time, never having to worry about freaking out... 
Wish I could jump in the car with my husband and zip up the pass without worrying that I am going to panic and lose control of my stomach, scream and beg for him to slow down, or jump out of the car at a stoplight before we even make it to I70 or something...
I wish I could be something different than what I am...