I am actually planning on starting counseling after the Thanksgiving holiday. And yes, I have received a diagnosis and am on medication for my depression.
I have undergone counseling throughout my life, and our relationship, and he has always been understanding and encouraging of it. I'm almost positive he would be open to marriage counseling as well, especially if he knew how I was truly feeling. That would have to wait until after the new year as schedules do not allow it right now (not just an excuse...final weeks of grad school w/thesis).
We have gone through this before and we have talked about it each time it happens (I am actually a counselor myself and believe in open communication). After talking, two things happen. 1.) Things get better for a couple weeks (he becomes more affectionate, he spends more time with me, he helps around the house more, etc) but then within a few weeks, it goes back to how it was. 2.) I end up coming to the conclusion that what we have it actually good. This is the first time the latter hasn't happened.
Thank you, everyone, for your responses. I hate to talk to people other than my husband about our relationship, but sometimes I just need to feel supported and that I am not alone in my thoughts/feelings.