I didn't get post-wedding blues so I can't exactly relate. But, you have to give your husband some slack. He is allowed to have a life outside of you. I can imagine it's hard for you since you feel dependent on him. But realistically, you are only physically dependent on him, you don't need to be emotionally dependent as well. That's a big burden for any person to bear, including your spouse.
That said, he is not, nor can he be, solely responsible for your happiness. It seems you are particularly sensitive as it is. Add stress, medical issues, a sh!t job... your level of sensitivity is bound to heighten. Just know when it's happening and come up with a strategy to manage it. If you find yourself becoming irrationally upset with your husband, take a walk, take a bath, go read a book, etc. Just call a moratorium on the issue at hand, take a breather, and re-address to see if was ever worth being upset in the first place.
Finally, don't be your own worst enemy by moping around, all doom and gloom all the time. You're not doing yourself any favors here. So next time, when your friends ask you to go out... GO OUT! Have fun, have a few drinks, let loose!
It might do you some good to seek the help of a counselor/therapist because it sounds like there is some depression and anxiety involved here.
I don't know if the OP has epilepsy or just randomly had a grand mal seizure. Either way, the last thing she should probably be doing is drinking alcohol as that can bring on seizures. I have epilepsy, so I speak from experience.
OP: I know from personal experience how terrible it can be after you have a seizure. I always feel scared to be alone, scared I'm going to have another seizure when anything in my body is a 'off' and scared to resume normal life. The longer you wait to resume normal life the harder it is though.
Talk with your H, communicate your needs. Marriage includes lots of compromising.
Also, hang out with some of your own friends when you know your H will be busy. Find a new hobby, volunteer.
Is the public transportation in your town good?
I don't have epilepsy, but I did have a seizure in my sleep like 11 years ago, I was 17 and they never figured out why. This one happened randomly and yes my doctor told me that alcohol can play a part in it. I usually do go out, happy hours with the girls, or whoever. I don't have a drinking problem, lol but it just goes hand in hand with things sometimes. That has slowly stopped since.
My last one that happened when I was younger didn't really faze me as much, no I couldn't drive and all of that, but mentally and physically I felt the exact same. This one though, I have just felt so different. I don't know if its the medicine, the new change in status, or what. Im sure it freaked him out too, he had never seen anything like that, then less than a week before the wedding here it is.
I have my own friends, I do usually go out when he's doing things with the guys, that is not a problem! My husband going out and hanging with his friends is NOT my problem... I love the fact that he has a hobby that he loves! I just wish I was more a part of that part of his life. If that makes me a sad girl because I want to be part of my man's life, especially when it is something he loves so much then fine .
We have talked about getting me a new job, and we will as soon as I am able to drive again. I already have one lined up. Public transportation is not going to work Riding a bus, by myself, just freaks me out. I don't live in a terrible neighborhood but that's not happening.. :) Thanks for your responses...